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Memories

Chapter 2: Memories

I didn't understand what I did wrong. I thought to myself while I lay in my bed. It

was still early, so I just lay there. I checked twitter. Nothing. All I could think was Why,

why, why. Why did he do it? Why didn't I try harder to stop him? Why did it have to be

me? Why, what did I do wrong? All these questions started giving me a headache. I

didn't even try to go back to sleep, when I wake up I stay awake. I'm staring into pure

darkness, I was terrified of the dark so I closed my eyes. I immediately started to

remembering. I can't open my eyes! I didn't want to remember! I want to forget it! I

started to cry.

" No " is all I said before falling into my nightmare.

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I'm sitting on the tile floor that contains the worst memory of my life. It feels so real. I

feel uneasy and I start getting shivers. Slowly the toys, the fish tank, the television, and

the rest of the room starts to appear. The door that I will soon be locked into appears.

" HELP! HELP! HELP! " I yell. I start pounding on the walls. I suddenly hear heavy

footsteps coming from behind the door. The door opens slowly. Gulp. He comes out of

the room asking me if I want to play doctor. I said " No " surprisingly very calm. He

starts walking toward me, I start backing away. I hit something so hard it makes my

back ache. He carries me into the room. I start screaming my lungs out. He throws me

onto the bed and slams the door shut. He orders me to lay down face down on the bed.

He then ties my hands to the iron bars of the bed. He whispers into my ear to stay still.

That's when I feel his hands on the loops of my pants and starts pulling them down, not

all the way down, thank god. I start to cry into the pillow. He tells me to shut up

because of the fear of him getting caught. He presses my head into the pillow. I can't

breath, I'm going to die I think to myself. I would rather die then be in this situation.

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I was raped, I was raped, I was raped, I thought while running away from the horrible

place. I was tired when I reached my house and it's only two houses away. I felt dirty, I

felt stupid. My subconscious wasn't helping, saying "It's your fault! It's your fault! " I

went to take a shower while crying my eyes out. When I was done I went to my room

and fell asleep on the floor, I don't think I'm ready to go to sleep on a bed.

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Still the memory-

"WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WHAT ARE YOU DOING ON THE FLOOR!?" I heard someone

scream. I didn't mind at first but then I remembered what happened. I jumped up and

started punching. "STOP, WHY ARE YOU PUNCHING ME! "I recognized the voice. It's

my dad! I hugged him and told him that he scared me. He just started laughing, my

dad's typical reaction. He stood up and pulled me up with him.

"We brought food, you want some? " even though he knew the answer already. I wasn't

really in a hungry mood but they would have thought something was wrong.

" Yes, please " I cheered.

"What a surprise " he said sarcastically while laughing.

They brought my favorite, Little Caesars pizza. I ate about four because they would have

gotten suspicious. They started comparing me to my sister again.

" Why do you eat so much? Look at your sister she's skinny and she doesn't eat a lot "

my mom complained

" I'm not like her " I said through gritted teeth. She managed to hear that.

" But you can be! " she said. Now I have to deal with her comparisons and the fact that I

got abused! At that moment I knew that my abuse would have to be kept a secret.

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Note: Sorry for the short chapters. I promise they will get longer.

Should she fall in love?

Did she do the right thing in not telling her parents?

What should her name be? (Going with the name that has the most votes)

A. Jackie

B. Joy

C. Sky

D. Other

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If she does fall in love, what should his name be?

A. Bryan

B. Theo

C. Will

D. Other

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