Moon Willows Tantrums

Almost everytime, but not once

I don't get to win
I can scream
I can kick
I can fight
I can lose
But I don't get to win
not once

She's the pendent around my neck
dazzling and seemingly right
she leaves the marks of chains
imprinted upon my skin
She grounds herself deep in my chest
she is the stome that no one identifies
she's soft and coarse
she's warm and cold
She's consistent with no grain
She's the weight on my shoulders
She's the assesory that I can't name
She's dazzling and seemingly right.

That is the place I hadn't hated before
That is the place with the warm sand
the cool beaches
That is the place with the beautifully
brutal winters and glistening snow
That is the place that is vacation
that is the place that is taking my home
That is the place where I will be displaced
That is the place that directied my change
and took my opportunites
That is the place that took my future off course
That is the place I hadn't hated before
That is the place with the warm sand,
the cool beaches

He is the boy who stole my heart
and now he'll never know
He is the boy who I've grown
fond of
He is the boy who makes me laugh
He is the boy who understood me
and I, him
He is the boy who made me think
differently
He is the boy who I'm leaving behind
with hopes of seeing again
He is the boy who became my favorite
what if.
he is the boy who stole my heart
and he'll never know

They are the people who greet me with open hearts
The ones who taught me it's okay to lean
they are the ones I've picked up and dusted off
They are the ones who skipped by my side
They are the ones who laughed at our
poor desicions
They are the ones who made pain
bareable
They are the ones who taught me to open
They are the ones I'll never forget
They are the ones who make leaving
miserable
They are the ones who won't forget me
They are the ones who taught me I won't be alone
They are the people who greet me with open hearts
The ones who taught me it's okay
to lean

This is the man who built me up
and I will be his undoing
This is the man who taugh me all I know
This is the man who encourages me to learn
This is the man who pushed me to
be better
This man is my foundation
This man taught me how to paint the stones
this man taught me how to fix what I have broken
This man is the strongest
that I've known
This is the man who built me up
and I will be his undoing.

because
I don't get to win
I can Scream
I can kick
I can fight
I can lose
but I don't get to win
Not once