A Rose in You [Anxiety/Virgil Sanders Fanfiction]

Chapter Seven

"I want a squirrel!" Thomas yells at me grinning like crazy. "Why? Don't you already plan on adopting a dog?" I ask my slightly insane friend. He shakes his head and explains "I mean my as my character in our newest cartoon." I nod and get to work on his character.

I open up the app and I take the skin I had made him out so I can study how it looks. I look at the thing that make Thomas different from others. I decided to have his fur be purple.

Once I figured that out I got started on actually doing the color, I give him a bowtie. Why? Because bowties are kool and I think it would make more sense then a scarf or sweatshirt if it's a squirrel. I tried a few things, but I really really like how it looks in the end. I show Thomas and he looks extremely excited about the skin. "Thank you so so much Virge," he tells me. "No problem," I reply.

I went back to chillin' out for the rest of the day in my room. Once I was there for around 5 to 10 minutes a note went under my door. It said...actually I read the words on the paper. Inanimate objects can't talk. "Time to come out. Patton made mac and cheese. ~Thomas".

I get out of the room and sit at the table to eat. Soon, Patton gives me my plate he flashed his adorable smile. "You're to adorable Patton," I think. As soon as I do, Patton freezes. I give him a confused look before I realize I said that out loud. I grab my earbuds, my phone at 100%, put on my sweatshirt and left.

I walked to the park and unplug my earbuds. I go to Spotify a turn on the song 'Be With You' and started to sing the song. Some people are watching me but I don't care. I need to let loose. Calm down. I found this much better than cutting. It's not a replacement but I like it better. When people pass by I feel alive. They don't know me. They like when I sing but they don't know me. I smile at the idea.

As soon as the song is done I put one of my earbuds in and start to walk home. "H-hello sir," a little boy says tugging on my shirt. I smile and say "Why hello there my good sir." This made the boy giggle and relax a bit. "I just wanted to tell you your sing was very pretty," he tells me. "Thank you very much! You better get back to your mom now." He nods and leave.

"Virgil?!" I hear someone say. I turn to see the young boy standing by his sister and... "Valerie?!" I run to her and hug her. "It's been so long! How's everyone at the office?" I ask. "Well Roman was 'secretly' gay. Also, him and Logan are dating. That's basically it," she tells me. I nod realizing I have to get home. "I gotta go. See ya around," I yell running and waving good bye.

After a block or two I put my other earbud in and start walking again. I see the girls that have been mean to me lately. They seemed to do it more when they saw me with Patton. I wonder if he knows them. I take a picture of them with out them noticing. I check to make sure that you can see there faces pretty well. Yes! You can see them perfectly! I run home to go question Patton and Thomas.

I get in the house and go to Pat... I mean Patton and Thomas. "Do either of you two know who these girls are?" I ask them. They look at each other, then back to me, and nod. "The blonde one is Mandy and the dirty blonde is Tina. They're best friends. They both has a giant crush on Patton, or at least they use to," Tom says. "Tina still tries to get with me once and a while. If weird how they both 'love' me and yet they're still best friends," Patton chimes in. I nod and inform them that I'm going to bed.

I walk in the room to see my self hanging there. Lifeless. I look to see a letter...no poem on the table. I read the words...
"I've given up.
I would try to die,
but people need me
at least to make me cry.
But realize I'm not dead yet.
Realize I'm alive
like everyone else,
but it hurts try.
Not sure if I needed
by my group friends.
They're worse then bullies
in the end.
They pretend to need me,
they pretend to care,
but they really don't want me there.
I wished they realized,
I wished they cared,
I wished they missed me when I wasn't there.
But now I realize
I'm nothing there.
I guess I'm nothing everywhere.
My dreams aren't coming true.
Not anytime soon.
I least I know they'll never care.
They just pretend I'm not there.
Am I no longer needed?
Am I just a bother?
Well soon they won't have to deal with me any longer."

When I finished I heard a a voice yell my name. I turned to see Patton on his knees, head in his hands and tears staining his face. I smile and go over and kiss his forehead softly. While he's crying in his hands because of my dead body next to me I add on to the note "Patton and Thomas, just remember, I'll always love you two. I'm not dead, I'm just not physically with you. Just smile for me, okay? ~Virgil"

I move the note slightly so he'll notice the note. He grabs and reads it. By the time he was done reading the note tears were pouring out of his eyes. "Why did you leave? Didn't you realize you were the only Virgil we had?" Patton yells through tears. "I'm sorry. I love you." I mumble before going into the light.

I woke up, unsure on whether I wanted to smile or cry. My body decides to just do both. After I wiped my tears and washed my tear stained face, I go to the dining room to see Patton and Thomas. I go up to them and give them both a hug. I whisper in their ears "Just remember, I'll always love you two."