A Rose in You [Anxiety/Virgil Sanders Fanfiction]

Chapter Eight

"How, when, why, and another why?" Patton asks while we're laying on his car roof. I look at him like he's a mad man. "1. How did you first find out about cutting? 2. When did you do your first cut? 3. Why did you did you cut? And finally 4. Why did you tell me and Tom you loved us this morning? Not that I mind." I smile at him. "It's a long story." He smiles back and says "I got time." "Okay then. Here's a story to explain the first 3..."

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"Hey there loser." said one of my bullies who was walking my way with his twin sister. I started to laugh and they look at me like I was some sort of monster. "Wow. Loser? Is that all you got? I'm an ugly insane monster that can barely pay attention to the world around me and you call me a loser? How uncreative." I spat at the bully. "You fucking insane fag. Why don't you cut yourself?" the female of the twins growls. I stare with confusion like the idiot I am. "Cut myself?" I mumble.

I get home with that comment echoing in my mind. "Why don't you cut yourself?" Why not? No one would care anyways. I'm an insane monster bitch. I broke my razor open and got the blade. I make a slice on my skin. A few minutes later I already have 16 cuts on each of my arms. One for each year I've been alive so far. I start to laugh quietly which quickly turns to silent weeping.

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"And that's how this all started." I said, gesturing to my arms. Pat stares back in shock which makes me smile sadly. "Um... you never answered my fourth question. Also, I don't think you're a monster." Patton says, making the last sentence hard to make out but it was possible. "If I die, I want you to remember that I love you guys. I couldn't ever leave thinking you guys don't know how much I love you, because I'll always will love you both." I reply. I need to tell him my feelings toward him, before I lose him to someone else.

"Patton, I love you." I say. "I love you, too." he replied. "No, I mean in a romantic way. Not a friend, best friend, or sibling way." I retorted. He smiles and says "Just my luck, because I mean it in the same way as you."

I stare at him smiling and slightly crying. I hug him and he hugs back. "We should get home," I say, but don't make any effort to move. "Yeah," Patton agrees, not moving either. I let go first and slide off the car. He follows after and starts to leave the parking lot. "Hey, I got to go do something, if I'm not back before a little after 8:30 come and look for me." I say running off.

I need to find Tina and Mandy. Or was it Manda? I think it was Mandy... whatever.

I spot Mandy and Tina over at an ice cream truck picking on Dodie and the girl she is with. I notice Dodie's lip quiver and the other girl actually cry. I rush over angrily and slap Tina. "You can hurt me, kill me for all I care, but you're soo fucking wrong if you think you can hurt my friends." I glare at her. Mandy and Tina look at me and laugh. "Your friends? Yeah right. Like any one could ever love a bitchy weed like you!" Mandy says.

I start to giggle, making Mandy and Tina confused, Dodie's friend scared, and Dodie smile. "Weed, eh? Nah. You see, one of us three is insane, with amazing friends, and a great boyfriend. That's me. So if you hurt my friends or boyfriend, well, you going to have a monster ready to kill after you," I say with a smirk. They both leave, looking pissed yet scared.

"So Dodie, who's your friend?" I turn to Dodie like nothing ever happened. "This is Lizzy. She's my girlfriend I told you about." she explains. I nod and smile at Lizzy. "Hi. I'm Virgil," I say, sticking my hand out for her to shake. She accepts my hand and smiles.

I turn to Dodie and ask "Hey, what time is it?" "8:23, why?" "I told Thomas and Patton I would be home at 8:30. I better start heading out. Laters." She waves and says "Laters, handsome."

"Guys, let's watch Mulan!" I yell bursting threw the door. Patton looks at me excited while Thomas nods his head in agreement. "I've never seen Mulan, I've been wanting to forever though." Patton says.

I look at his like he's a creature from a different planet. "You know it's on Netflix, right babe?" Patton stares at me before saying "It is?" Thomas and I start to laugh, making Patton mad, which it's very rad, more bad to be a tad honest. (I think I'm funny.)

"I'm sorry," I tell Patton through a fit of laughter. He rolls his eyes and finds Mulan. As soon as he finds it he pushes play, not yet knowing he would regret watching it with me.

When Mulan is finished the boys just look at me. "What?!" I yell. "You sang. Every. Single. Song. Not in the 'I'm trying my hardest' way. More like the 'I wonder how loud I can say the words to this song with out messing up' way," Thomas said to me, making me laugh. "Yeah..." I said with a grin.

"Wait... didn't you call Patton babe earlier?" Thomas asks, obviously another one of his delayed reactions. We both blush and nod. "You two are a thing!" Thomas happily "cheers". Opinionly, he sounds like an excited sea lion.

This time I shake my head no while Patton nods. He realizes this and gives me a confused stare. "He hasn't asked me yet. He's so slow, isn't he," I tell Thomas. Patton sighes and gets down on one knee. "Virgil Grace, would you like to be my boyfriend?" Patton asks with a smile and a slight blush. I nod and hug him.

Thomas smiles and whispers into Pat's ear. He nods with a smile on his face. "Welp, I'm tired, night," Thomas says while leaving. "Night Thomas," we both say making me giggle.

We start to walk to our room before I stop Patton. "Pat? Can I sleep in your room tonight?" I ask. He nods. "Of course Virgil," he says kindly. I fall down on to his beanbag chair, falling asleep soon after I lay on it.