Warning : SPG.
Language and...urmm...stuff.
"I want to live in a farm, with large green fields and stuff....or perhaps sa beach house. Gusto kong makakita ng dagat."
"You can have them all, Cara Mia. You are a princess, you can easily ask your father for those--"
"Pero yung gusto ko sana yung kasama ka."
I was awakened by the snore of the man beside me. I winced.
"What the hell?"
The f*cking dream again. Hanggang ngayon, ginugulo pa rin ako.
Bumangon na ako at tumayo mula sa kama, not even bothered to cover my nakedness, kaya ko namang tiisin ang lamig. I combed my long hair with my fingers and picked up my robe on the floor.
What is his name anyway? Cardo? Claudio? What I know is that he is from that Spanish Coven. The third son. I'm not sure. I had his older brother before.
Hindi naman importante yon. He's unworthy to be remembered anyway.
He's weak. Just lasted two rounds. Didn't even made an effort to make me cum. And he's not even that big.
He'll asked for my hand after this too, just like the others. And I will always turn it down.
Masaya siya, prinsesa kaya ako, a daughter of a king. Hindi ako basta magpapakasal sa kung sino-sino lang.
Magiging issue na naman ito sa High Council. They really wanted to marry me off after what happened. To save face, they say.
Ayoko nga. I want this freedom.
I'll bed any men I want to. No one has to tell me otherwise. They have no right to do so. My body, my problem.
Sinunot ko na ang robe at inayos na ang sarili. Lumabas na ako ng kwartong yon at iniwan ko na si Cardo...whatever his name is. Kamukha niya si Coco Martin. Yung probinsyano guy na pinapanood ko sa tv noon nag-stay kami sa Pilipinas. Ew.
Saka isa pa, gabi na, baka mahuli na naman ako ni Papa na wala sa kwarto ko. Panigurado gising na yon. Nararamdaman ko na ako na ang susunod na ikukulong sa tower dahil sa perwisyo kong dinadala sa kanya.
Dati naiingit pa ako kay Nia dahil malaki ang kwarto niya sa taas ng tore na yon. Bata pa kami nang inihiwalay na siya ng mga magulang ko sa iba. Like she was so special. But I understood now how lonely she must have been.
Wala siyang kasama. Wala rin siyang ibang makausap. Kaya siguro tuluyan ng nabaliw ang kapatid ko.
She's very crazy inlove now with that Prince Pierre. My own uncle. Nawawalang kapatid ni Mama. Anyway I guess that's alright with them, she's just my half sister, anak siya ni Papa sa ibang babae, recently ko lang din nalaman.
I sighed. Muntik nang maging incest.
My family is f*cked up.
At least masaya na si Nia. She have someone that loved her even after everything that happened to her. Wala na nga siyang panahon para kausapin pa ako. It's not that I wanted to. Hindi ko rin alam kung paano ko siya papakitunguhan ngayon.
I sighed.
I slept with her rapist. I gave him my virginity. Even my mark.
And even if I've known what he did, I would probably do the same thing.
I'm f*cked up to the fullest.
Dumiretso ako sa library pagtapos mag-tip-toe galing sa hallway. Sinigurado kong walang makakakita sa akin. May shortcut doon papaakyat sa Tower ni Nia. Tunnels. Secret passageways.
