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Its what i live for.

                            15 weeks
Erin

Im 15 weeks now and i started growing. I went for my monthly check up last week and the baby's healthy.

Ive been getting really tired very easily.

Its Sunday and the 'Linstead duo' got the day off. We cant really go anywhere really because its snowing up a storm outside.

So we just thought to stay home.

Jay's still fast asleep next to him. His one arm protectively around my stomach.

He'll be a dad soon. I never thought id see the day that he'd be my baby daddy. I always thought that he was to good for me.

Most of the guys ive dated if not all of the guys ive dated, always had this tendency to leave me for someone better.

I always try to be the best that there is. Like theres no one better than me.
Theres always gonna be someone more prettier, more skinny,funnier and smarter than me.

And yet my definition of the perfect guy chose to be with me.

Im really lucky to have him in my life.

If our baby's a girl, i hope she finds someone who makes her happy. That he'll never make her wonder her worth.

"What you thinking bout?" asks jay bringing out of my thoughts.

He has never sounded so sexy. Im in love with his morning voice.

"Nothing much, how long have you been awake?" i asks him as he raises his eyebrow.

"Long enough to know that somethings on your mind" he says moving closer if thats even possible.

He knows me so well.

"Ive just been thinking about everything. How lucky i am to have you in my life. But i do have one question tho" i say.

"Yeah sure whats up?" he says softly in my ear.

"You couldve had any girl you wanted and yet you chose me. Why is that?" i ask him.

"Youre different from any other girl ive dated. You share many of my interests and others you just take an interest in it so you could make me happy even though you might hate it. Youre not afraid to eat and i mean even before the baby you didnt care what people would say about the amount of food you ate. I love that you dont eat rabbit food like many girls do to stay skinny and that. I also love how you dont use to much make up. I love your messy ass leaving the bathroom towel on the floor just waiting for me to pick it up" he says as he laughs a little.

"Of course youre my house husband remember?" i say laughing.

"I love you so much baby" he says with so much passion in his voice I could just melt everytime he tells me this, even though he says it all the time. Meaning it each time he says it.

He makes me so happy.

"I love you too, with all my heart."  i say looking into his blue eyes.

He smiles looking down at my brown orbs.
He lay in a comfortable silence.

"Jay, youre happy with the baby right ? Promise you wont leave because i'll try and make it easier for you" i say softly.

Come to think of it. Im actually terrified of the whole idea of being a mom. I had bunny as a mother. No good could ever come from that.

I just want Jay to be happy and comfortable with having a baby. Theres always gonna be bad days. I wanna depend on him to go through it with me..

As a family

"Of course I am. I promise. You wont have to do anything by yourself. Through good and bad I'll be by your side. Looking after our kid, together. I wanna be a great father and i know youre having doubts about being a mother but we'll get through this okay" he says.

He clearly became more wise this morning. Whatever he says is normally stupid. But now he's really serious about this.

"Youre really making this easier on me. I couldnt ask for a better baby daddy." i say.

Wow.

For the first time ever there was no fuss or sarcastic remarks made this morning.

But im not complaining i love the way we are right now. This moment is the best i could ask for.

When it comes to my future with Jay and our baby, he's really serious about it.

He's serious about our future together.

"Its my life. Making you and our baby happy. Its what i live for"