Lindstead~Family?~🌈💗

Milk

Jay's POV~

Its been days since Erin and I found out we're having a boy. Im really excited for our baby to arrive. Being 6 months pregnant is hard, and thats alot coming from me. Im not even the one pregnant.

Erin's hormones have been driving me crazy and the cravings? Even worse. I know its only temporary but damn. Being her househusband is damn hard. But i love her so? What can you do.

"Jay!" I hear Erin yell from the kitchen, bringing me out of my thoughts.

I walk from the living room to the kitchen just to see her with an angered expression on her face.

"I thought i asked you to buy milk last night after shift" she states angrily.

I knew i forgot something.

"Im sorry, i totally forgot" i say in an  apologetic tone, trying to calm her down.

"You forgot!? Jay, i need to eat cerealand i cant eat if theres no fucking milk. Why cant you just do what i say" she yells rolling her eyes at me.

"Eat something else then, i'll go to Walmart later and buy your milk" i say frustrated with myself for forgetting.

"Why cant you just go now?" she asks impatiently.

"Its rush hour, i'll be stuck in traffic" i say sighing. Running my fingers through my hair.

"Well if you bought it last night , you wouldnt need to go now would you?" she states crossing her arms over her chest.
To come to think of it, her boobs really got bigger. I guess its all the milk in there.

" Oh my god, i will go get your damn milk stop freaking the fuck out on me." i say a bit agitated at the moment

Erin just starts bursting into tears and starts full on crying..

Maybe it was a mistake to yell at her.
Shes really emotional..

"No no no, baby dont cry. Look im sorry for yelling at you. I'll go get your milk okay." i say walking over to bring her into a hug.

"Im sorry" she cries as i wipe her tears from her face.

"Wanna come with me?" i ask her as she nods her head softly.

We're both already dressed and its cold out so we just put on our coats and head to the market.

We're both in the car right now, stuck in traffic.

"Erin, you think of any names yet baby?" i ask trying to pass the time.

"No not really, You thought of anything?" she asks rubbing her huge belly.

He started kicking a while ago. It was really amazing actually. To think im about to be a dad in three short months. Wow.

I cant say that im not nervous about this huge change in my life, because having a baby is a big deal. I love kids, i honestly do. But sometimes i wonder how it'll be with my son.

My dad wasnt the greatest but he was still my dad. Im not gonna try and be like him, i wanna give my family the best.

"Well no. I thought you'd wanna pick it. Since youre the one pushing him out of your body" i say laughing slightly.

She smiles. He blonde hair fanning her face, as her eyes lits up.

"How about Tyler or Dylan?" she asks excitedly clapping her hands as i laugh.

"Baby i love you....but we are not naming our baby after your creepy obsession with teenwolf" i say laughing as she pouts playfully.

"Well youre no fun at all." she says smiling soflty.

"How about Zac...or justin" i say, in memory of Voight's late son. Its been tough on both him and Erin.

First he loses his wife, his son and then his grandson. Erin is all he has left and i dont want him feeling alone. He might be a pain sometimes..but we still love him. We're the only family his got right now.

"Thats really sweet Jay" says erin softly. I know family is a really touchy subject for her.

"I love you Erin Lindzay" i say looking over at her as she starts to cry...for the second time this morning.

Luckily she doesnt have any make up on so it wont smudge.

"Thank you" she says whispering.

"For what?" i ask confused.

We pull up at the market and i park the car in the parking lot. I switch of the engine and turn to face her, giving my undivided attention.

"I know these past 6 months have been really hard and im sorry about that. Ive never had such a huge responsibility before. Taking care of a baby, ive never done this whole family thing and im so scared of fucking things up with you and our son. I dont know how to be a good mom Jay. Im so scared. I dont wanna fuck this up. Our relationship wasnt really the best and i was shit scared of telling you that i was pregnant. I thought you were gonna leave me. Im just really thankful that youre here and that you want this with me. I dont wanna disappoint you anymore, i promise I'll try my hardest to make this work." she says ranting through tears.

We've always talked about our fears. I noticed like almost 3 days ago that something was on her mind. But i knew she'd tell me in her own time.

"Baby, you are not gonna fuck anything thing up. Having this baby is just gonna make us even stronger and having this with you? Is all i ever wanted. Youre my everything Erin Lindzay and i'll remind you every day if i have to. Yes having a baby wont always be easy but princess i'll be there. You could never disappoint me erin. I love you so much i hope you know that cause i plan on making you my wife in a few months or years. It doesnt really matter. You do you and you'll be alright." i say as she smiles

"You always say the right things to make me feel better" she smiles wiping her tears from her face.

I smile as we both get out of the car and walk hand in hand into the market.

We walk through the isles and get some milk. Im about to walk to the till to pay, but Erin decided that she need to buy the whole market.

"Thought we were only buying milk" i say smirking as she put some skittles and some other junk food into the cart.

"Yeah well i changed my mind" she say sassily.

"Come on lets go" i say laughing as she smiles pushing the cart.
Im so glad to have her in my life. I watch as she pays for the food.

Everything about this woman, is just so perfect. Which makes this even more perfect is that shes carrying my son.