2 months have passed since I went to Seattle to see Shawn. 2 excruciatingly long months.
In that time he released 2 new songs. 'Stitches' and 'mercy' . Of course he's making it seem like I'm the bad person. Like I'm the person that decided we should breakup.
He is the one that decided that. Not me.
I have been trying so hard to keep myself together but it is so damn hard.
I am strong, I am independent, I am confident. I keep telling myself over and over again. I will say these words over and over again until I believe they are true.
Everything's been rough these past couple of weeks. Shawn is currently in Nebraska. He has a show tonight. I have been keeping up with what cities he's been in and where he's been performing. I know I shouldn't care and it's probably not good for me to keep checking in on him but I can't seem to help myself.
Charlie and I have been keeping in touch the past couple of weeks. Every single show they have done has been sold out. Charlie is having a blast. He hasn't brought up Shawn which I am grateful for. I don't think I'm ready to talk about him with anybody yet. Claire hasn't brought him up since we left Seattle and neither has chase. I think Claire filled him in on everything. I know it's probably hard for him not to talk about Shawn around me and Claire. I give him props because he hasn't said a single word about him. I'm grateful .
I turn the car radio on as I head home from school. Thank god it's Friday. I need to relax this weekend and just take some time to figure everything out. I need to spend some time on me.
"Singing Sensation Shawn Mendes just released a new song" the radio producer says. I turn it up.
"The song is called 'Hold On' it seems to be about Shawn's struggles. I wonder what he is struggling with?" I turn the radio down.
I don't want to listen to it. I don't need too. I already know it's gonna be another bullshit song about how I broke his heart and what not.
I'm ready to move on, I need to move on. I'm scared if I don't I'll be this broken insecure girl forever. I don't want that anymore. I want to be strong.
It's just been so damn hard.
I pull into Starbucks parking lot and put my car in park and turn off my ignition.
I need coffee to get through today. There's no way in hell I will survive the rest of the evening if I don't have caffeine in my system.
I walk up to the cash register to see a cute guy with blonde hair and blue eyes. As I get closer I read his name tag as 'Jake'.
"Can I have your name" he ask as I tell him my order which is a large Caramel iced coffee. Just the thing I need.
"Stella"
"Okay Stella , and your phone number?" He looks up at me with a smirk.
"Do you ask every customer for there phone numbers?" I question and laugh
"Only the cute ones" he shrugs and I laugh harder.
"That sounds fair" I give him my phone number.
I need to start getting over Shawn , maybe meeting a cute guy will help speed up that process. I know it sounds seriously fucked up but I really need to do what's best for me and this might just do the trick.
"I get off at 7, can I pick you up after and maybe we can go grab something to eat?" He questions and I nod.
"That actually sounds great" I smile. He waves goodbye one last time and I walk away with a coffee and a date. Today might not be so bad.
I call Claire on the phone as I leave out of Starbucks parking lot.
She answers on the first ring
"Hello?"
"I have a date tonight" I say excitedly
"Hold on" I hear her shift the phone .
"Your going on a date?!" She finally says after a couple of seconds.
"Yeah I feel like this is what I need to help myself get over Shawn" I smile but it quickly fades.
"Claire" I turn my head and see a truck coming
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Bad Boy Mendes (Shawn Mendes)
Fanfiction"Don't be stupid, you don't want this life. I'm constantly moving how do you expect me to be the person you need me to be?" Shawn yell's with a cracked voice running his fingers through his hair distressed. This is a side of him i have never seen b...
