A Life Through Different Eyes.

Late June

          I'm so fucking confused, I don't know what we're going to do. So my mother, brother, and I are supposed to be moving, but now we're in a complicated predicament. At first we used to live with my grandmother which was ok at the time, because my junior high school was close to the house. The only reason we moved out the first time is because my mom "fell in love" with my brother's dad, and my brother was just born, so we moved in with him. That's an experience I never want to have again. They used to argue every night, which would cause my little bro to cry, and he and I used to share a room which would wake me up also. Glad that's over though.

          After a couple of months in my brothers dad's house my mother finally moved, but guess where? Back to my grandmother's house. Ughh I know right, and here we go with the same thing over and over again "Oh why y'all here, why y'all don't go back to your new family, get out my house, I can't live wit y'all anymore, y'all to much work, and your mother don't help pay with any of the bills!" she says repeatedly. "Ok grandma" I say calmly, "Don't tell me ok!". See what I go through everyday.

          So after a couple of months of that, we go through this huge process so that we could go live in a shelter. My mother was just laid off at the time so they gave her a break, plus the fact that she had two kids and one wasn't even 1 year old yet. They were giving us a hard time because my mother was receiving food stamps, unemployment, and welfare, plus you have to write a reason why you thought that you were eligible to receive a place to live within the shelter. My mother wrote that we were recently living with her mother and that she kicked us out. If course you know they called my grandmother and asked her a whole bunch of questions just to make sure that my mother wasn't lying.

          Anyway we got in the shelter and it isn't as bad as you think. It's a lot like an apartment building, we got a studio with 2 beds and a crib. We lived there for about a year and then we finally found our own apartment in Mill Basin. It is a four family house, our section/apartment had two bedrooms, a dining area, a living room, bathroom, and a kitchen. I really liked it, wish we could live there still. It was a good life, the programs that my mom had were paying about 2/3rds of the bills including day care for my bro, which was a good bargin. Then my mom got a job as a bus driver, so that means no more programs. After about 3 and 1/2 years the landlord sold the building, but even before this he wasn't receiving rent from my mother because the programs were supposed to pay for a few more months and then stop, but I don't know what happened. So my mother was receiving a lot of letters starting that she would either have to be out the building by a certain date or pay all of the back rent by a certain time, or be evicted. Since she couldn't pay all of the rent by the due date we started packing, I guess you already have a hint on where we're going, yup back to grandma's house.

          So the battle begins again with the same old thing from my grandmother. Blah blah blah... on and on and on about getting out and shit but whatever. Now my mom is looking for a new place, or at least I think she is, cause I know I am, which is weird cause I really dislike my mom, but then again look at everything shes done for me. It could be worse. So far we have almost everything picked right now all we have left is the big stuff such as the China cabinet, the dining table, my bunk-bed, the coffee table, two couches, her bed, and two tv's. Yeah I got good stuff yet I'm so ungrateful, but everyone is, because they always want more no matter what it is. Ever since the second moving in back with my grandmother, my mom wants to move back in our old house, but that's hard cause he sold the building, plus the rent situation which is so confusing, I have no idea what we're gonna do.

(Basically it's current events from now on, so it's basically a life journal (not my life) lol but I will be updating at least once a month sorry I've been really busy with school and shit, but thanks for reading, I love you peace✌️.)