Of course it's not that story. It's a story of strength. I'm the girl who was strong enough to let go of his hand. I was the girl strong enough to live.
It's not as if living is easy. At times it feels like you can't hold on. However the world seemed so much better as an 11 year old. Being 12 was just hard.
That's when I joined blyth academy. The hell mouth itself. From day one, I felt like I had to be like everyone else. They were all just clones of the same girl. Copying each other. Focusing on makeup and expensive products. I tried my best to fit in with all the popular girls. Nothing worked, they set me up. With their mean words, I didn't know they were mean. I wish I'd known. Except I thought I had a friend. Demi, she told me everything. She was in care. She was manipulative. A clone. A fox, a mean, pretty fox who wanted nothing but to feed on the rat. I was the rat. Why'd she chose me?
I started feeling worthless. Messed with. Like a toy that soon gets thrown away. Little did I know this was only the start.
At the end of year seven I broke up with a boy. He was called Connor. He was just like every other boy, careless. The whole of the summer holidays he decided he'd mess me around. He told me that if we'd meet up in secret it'd be like Romeo and Juliet. Gosh why? His hugs were like marshmallows under a roasting fire, warm and cosy.
I try to tell my self every day that he was a werewolf in sheep's clothing, just waiting for his time to jump out and reveal who he really was. I believe my self now.
When school came again I was frightened. Sweat soaked the snowy white collar. Tear stained cheeks. Eyes flooding like a stormy day. I tried to make my self sleep in. Home was my safe haven. I could be my self there. I didn't have to be scared to live another day.
As silly as this may sound, I had a good group of friends; I was still scared. My friends stood by me for most of the year. However there was only one I'd tell everything. Leah. My best friend. We fit together like the yin and yan. If I remember correctly, we didn't spend a day apart. Always sleeping at each other's houses.
