Mute for a reason

Times up lifes gone

After I pay for all my shiz I walk out and into the streets it wasn't cold nor was it hot. I went to the side of the street and got out a cigarette I lit it and put it in my mouth. I was to busy thinking to notice someone walking towards me. I guess I can't win for lose. I looked up just in time to see a hand coming towards me.

I flinched away knowing it would do no good I also covered myself. Big mistake it was Joseph sitting down next to me and he was waving. Well now time for questions possibly. And to think I just wanted to smoke have a drink and then take some pills but nooooo this dude had to come and sit down next to me. Gosh people these days so inconsiderate and rude.

Yes I know I'm over reacting but still I just wanna die but this dude just sat down next to me. What do I do he doesn't read sign and I just realized I haven't eaten in a while. When was the last time I'd eaten? Off topic. But wait seriously when was the last time I'd eaten.

Who am I kidding I don't need food. I mean I'm fat enough. Gosh off topic again what was I thinking about. Oh yea how I can't communicate with the bad boy whose sitting right next to me. Gosh I need some mental help sometimes but it's ok.

You know what I need right now a nice little sip of alcohol. I reach over to the bag and grab out a bottle and open it. Joseph just looks at me like I'm crazy. Maybe I am maybe I'm not. I don't really care anymore.

Just kill me off already gahhh. I just wanna die but. Ya know what? I'm just gonna get up and go. I'm gonna do it. I'm really gonna do it. I'm standing up I'm doing it and..... yea I need alcohol.

I grabbed out the bottle and started chugging Joseph just staring at me I offered him some but he declined his fault. I kept drinking until I felt a little haze ah yes the best time of my day.  Drink is all that's running threw my head. Then Joseph just stares at me.

"What in your life is so fucked up that you the mute is drinking alcohol and smoking?"

I laughed of course I was drunk so I didn't think over my next action.

"Well you see what's so fucked up is I got one parent and a dead mom. I had to burry her myself because the only time my dad cared was before.... and then he killed her, let me see what else oh yea I'm fucking abused do you know how it feels to come home everyday and come home to a whip with glass shards in it." well at least that's off my chest and it could be worse his entire gang could've heard me and I would of had to run.

I turned up another bottle of vodka I think. What if the pills don't kill me? Maybe I'll get alcohol poisoning and die like that. Either way I don't care the real hell couldn't be any worse than this hell. oh god I got to puke. I don't feel well maybe even light headed. Did I take the pills already? No I was saving them for when I got home. Why do I feel dizzy then, and then it all went black.

Hey so I know I haven't updated in a while and this chapter is really short and just bleh but i thought id tell you im wiritng a new story and would apprieciate it if any of you would enter in a cover for a few of the chapters and the one that I like the most will be the main cover. As I said I'm very sorry for not updating I just now had time at 1:03 in the morning. So I hope you enjoyed this really short chapter and remember to send me those covers I'll give the people who want to make a cover the information and everything but I don't want anyone else to know so those people who enter will be given my email, and the tittle of the story and I'm probably but private message me if you want to enter to make me a cover because It would reallyyyyy help me out a lot because I'm not that skilled. Ok so I hope people will enter that and really all you get if you win is a shoutout for our chapter the thing is in and the person with the nicest cover will be the main cover for the story and will get a shoutout in the first chapter. I know it isn't that good but I'm struggling over here and need a cover for the story. Okay so that's it SEND IN COVERS please and I hope you all have a nice week.

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