On My Mind

GoodBye

Park Jimin

I was so happy! Being with the one I love, I hope nothing will go wrong!

After the goodbye party, I thank my parents and went home to pack up my things in 2 medium suitcases filled with all my clothes, shoes, electronics, chargers and all of that stuff.

I went back to Yoongi's house and knocked on the door.

Knock

Knock

Knock

When the door opened, I was faced with a smiling Taehyung. I hugged him as fast as I could and he did the same.

I heard him sniffling which made me a bit sad because Yoongi and I were leaving him.

"Don't worry Tae, I'm sad I have to leave you, too"

"Y-yeah, me too Hyung"

I pull back the soothing embrace and went to find Yoongi.

Kim Taehyung

Jimin pulled back the hug and I had sorrow all over me. I had lost the one I had loved for so long to someone he loves the more and that shared the feeling.

I'll miss the embrace I gave Yoongi at night and I'll miss his gummy smile. I'll miss everything about him, but he won't miss me at all.

He won't feel the same as me, he won't tell me anything, he won't see me but forget me, and he'll be too far from me.

I stood there with a blank expression, lost in my horribly deep thoughts, until I was shook by Jimin's lover and my heart breaker.

"Tae, we'll be leaving now. Wanna take our last picture?"

"Sure"

I lied, I didn't want to. I don't want to see his perfectly structured face. I don't want to get lost his eyes. I don't want any kind of reminders of his warm embrace when he accepted. I don't want to remember everything about him anymore.

But I stood there, smiling like an idiot. Waiting for the picture to take place. I was in the far left of the picture, one arm around Jimin's short shoulders and the other holding up a 'V' symbol near my eye.

Click

I was handed a photo of all of us and I stared at myself. Criticising every big and small thing about myself

'You know you didn't want to, so why did you smile?"

'I know it's all fake'

'He won't see you in any other way, other then a friend from kindergarten'

'You should be more manly'

'We both know ho-'

"Taehyung?"

I snapped out of the negativity that played on my head and responded.

"Sorry, I was just too deep on my thoughts. It'll be the last time I'll see you"

"Yeah, I guess 7 years of having fun with you can all happen in a blink of an eye"

"I know Yoongs"

"I'll go back to Jimin, promise you'll see us off?"

"Promise"

"Now don't take forever Tae"

I had the eagerness of a dog to break the promise, but the blood of loyalty I had stopped me from anything bad.

I went outside and waited for a bit, waiting for them to leave and wave at me while being all the more happy.

Once again, I had stepped in and emerged myself in the all the my negative works I've created so far and then was broken and made by Yoongi.

I just smiled, knowing he's going to leave me forever, I'll leave a good impression. It's just the normal happy Tae. Ironic right?

"Taehyung, we'll be leaving soon"

"I know, I'll just miss you guys so much!"

"Us too"

They went inside the car, rolled the windows down, and waved. Being the same idiot earlier, I waved back and smiled.

'Its too difficult to live now.'

'But I will'

'I'll try'