To love or To let go?

TLTLG: Chapter 9

Hindi nga nagkakamali si Cloud. He didn't broke his promise that he'll make my last days memorable.

Wala nadin naman akong magagawa, ano pa ipaglalaban ko kung pati mismo katawan ko gusto nang magpahinga.

Cloud didn't allow me to do a lot of things na makakapagpapa-pagod saakin. Since hindi pa kino-confirm nung doctor ko na pwede kaming umalis ng hospital para sulitin yung mga araw na natitira saakin we just enjoy every moment that we have.

Masakit. Sobrang masakit. Bakit ganon si tadhana no? Kung kelan huli na ang lahat tsaka may mangyayaring magandang bagay. Kung saan tinanggap ko na hindi talaga kami yung para sa isa't isa, tinanggap ko na e.

Pero ito siya ulit, bumabalik.

Not all things are taken for granted. It's either we like it or not. Ginusto nating mangyari to then lets face it, if we do not choose the other way round we regret it. You see everything happens for a reason.

A reason to be smiling and a reason for frowning.

"Ano nanaman yang iniisip mo?"

"What if I give up nalang? Tutal death is just around the corner bakit ko pa patatagalin?"
That left him shocked.

"Wait what? Xav. What the hell are you thinking?"

"I'm just-"

"You're just what? Stating a conclusion? A conclusion for what! Hindi mo ba naiisip kami Xav? Like seriously ganyan ka ba talaga ka-manhid? Xav, may mga taong nagmamahal pa sayo dito bakit ba hindi mo matanggap na ayaw ka pa naming mawala kahit minsan gusto na naming bumitaw!" Naiiyak na sambit ni Cloud.

"C..Clou-"

"No Xav. We're not giving up. No. Just no. We'll both fight together, just don't give up yet." Sambit niya bago niya ako iniwan mag-isa sa kwarto.

Kinabukasan dumating na sila Mama kasama si Chace. Tinanggap ko na kuya ko siya, simula ng malaman ko na magiging kapatid ko siya tinanggal ko na lahat lahat ng nararamdaman ko sakaniya bukod sa pagiging kapatid niya.

Kaming dalawa lang ni Mama ang natira sa loob ng kwarto ko ni walang imik na naririnig saaming dalawa. I know she's hurting, I know that because she's Mom.

She may look happy and smilling a lot on the outside but in the inside she felt like dying because of everything that is happening around her.

"Mom..." malungkot kong sambit sakaniya.

"Do you remember when you we're still a kid and your Dad have to assist you on your first day of school?"

"Daddy! Daddy! Come on wake up!" I said while jumping around their bed.

"Wha? Why?"

"Oh come on you big snoring bear it's time for school!"

"Oh shoot! I complete forgot!" He said while jumping out of his bed.

"Mama is already down stairs, she already prepared the breakfast."

"I'm sorry Xavvy, your Dada forgotten your first day of school."

"It's fine Dada! Now come on we don't wanna be late on my first day of school!"

Mom had to leave the house earlier than us because she had to attend a meeting on their office that's why Dad was left incharge of me.

Dada had to do my pigtails. Preparing my lunchbox, up to driving me to my school.

While were on our way to my school we both have that mantra where we would sing crazy high-notes songs, but me being a small kid all along I sounded like a dying cat.