Grayson Dolan "If Only"

Dead

Previously:

Grayson's POV
"Am I missing something", I asked Paige. "Yeah what did she mean by not being that person again", asked Ethan. "Uhhhhh", Paige stuttering. Y/n walked back in looking down at her phone. Y/n looked up and noticed Ethan, Paige and I gathered round and looking back at her. "Everything ok", Y/n asked. Ethan and I turned around to face her. Y/n looked confused. "What's up", Y/n asked. "What did you mean when you said that you weren't that person anymore", I asked. Y/n looked down, she looked back up and titled her head with a sad look and sighed.

Back to your POV

"I'm sorry", Paige said sadly. "What, no don't say sorry", said Grayson annoyed.  You were about to speak until. "You've kept to many secrets from us Y/n", Grayson said agitated. You just stood there with your head down not knowing what to say. "So what is it", asked Ethan. You looked up. "I......", i began to speak but i shook my head. "Why is it so hard to say", Ethan asked. Grayson kept quite. "Because she's tried so hard to forget about it", Paige said. You turned your head away and walked out of the warehouse, as you left you heard Paige call your name. You walked to your car and drove off. 

Grayson's POV

"She has to stop doing this", i said. "If you were her you would do the same thing", Paige said. "Is it really that bad", asked Ethan. "When you hear it...no, but when you think about it and all the other things thats happened...yeah, it's just sad", Paige said. When i heard that i grabbed the car keys and ran off out to the car. I drove to our spot and walked up the hill. I looked around and she wasn't there. i drove off to the swimming pools and she wasn't there. I drove over to her apartment and she wasn't there. I started to get worried. I called Paige because Y/n left her phone at the warehouse. "What's happened, are you and Y/n ok", asked Paige. "I don't know. She's not at the spot, swimming pools or at the apartment", i said concerned. "Ummmmmm let me think", Paige replied. "Ohhhh try Echo Park", Paige recommended. "Ok i'll go now", i said as i hung up and ran back to the car. I drove over to Echo park. I saw Y/n sitting on a park bench looking over the lake with the ducks and swans swimming. I walked over quietly and sat beside her. We didn't say a word until Y/n broke the silence. "I'm sorry........i'm sorry i didn't tell you. I've just tried so hard to forget about it", Y/n said still watching the lake. "I'm sorry that i pushed you into telling me", I said. "No, you...you should know about it", Y/n stated. "I just had to think, i'll meet you at the warehouse with the others", Y/n said as she stood up and walked away. I got in the car and drove back to the warehouse. Y/N and i walked into the warehouse and we sat down on the air track mat. 

Back to your POV

"Ok so the thing that i tried really hard to forget about was that i had an eating disorder. I had it last year and it was really hard. I was in the middle of intensive trainings preparing for the Olympics and i was just constantly tired i just had no energy to keep going. It felt like my life was being sucked out of me. I felt weak and all of it started was because i didn't like what i looked like. I thought i looked too much like an athlete and i thought the only way to handle that was to loose weight by cutting down on what i ate. It got too obsessive that i practically just stoped eating. The scary part that i try to forget was that i fainted and i didn't wake up, in other words i died for a short period of time", i said. You took a deep breathe in and out and a tear fell down your cheek, you quickly whipped it away. "I am so sorry", Ethan said. "It's not your fault", i said. "You know Grayson died when he was born, like his heart stopped and then he just decided to wake up. You two really do have a lot in common", added Ethan. You looked up at Grayson and went over to him. You lifted his head up and cupped his head in your hands. You whipped away a tear that was falling down Grayson's cheek with you thumb and gave him a hug. He hugged back tightening the hug. Paige and Ethan walked away and went in the editing room. "I'm sorry", i said. "It's not your fault", Grayson replied. "I'm sorry", Grayson added. "It's not your fault", i said beginning to laugh. Grayson laughed with you. "Our lives are so crazy", Grayson said as you were both still in a tight hug. "You can say that again", i laughed. "Do your parents no about all of that", asked Grayson. "About what, my eating disorder", i asked. "Yeah", Grayson replied. "No, no one knows. Only You, Paige and Ethan know", i said. "We'll keep it that way", said Grayson. "And please don't worry, you don't need to check to see if i've eaten because i am aware of it now", i said. "Ok, but i'm still going to worry", Grayson said. "Ok", i laughed. "You excited for tomorrow", i added. "Very. I can't wait for you to perform and you win all the awards and you and Paige handing me and Ethan our award. Especially walking the carpet with you, Paige and Ethan", Grayson said excitedly. 

You all went out for pizza for dinner and had a good time chilling out. You all went to bed early so you wouldn't be tired for tomorrow. You called Louie to make sure that everything was in order for tomorrow and said that there was nothing to worry about. You went to sleep with Grayson at his apartment and Ethan and Paige were at your apartment sleeping.