Grayson Dolan "If Only"

Closure

Paige and i were packing for New Zealand to go back home for the funeral. The twins were planning on coming with us for support. We are so appreciative to have them in our lives, we don't know where we would be without them and to be honest we don't want to think about where we would be because it would be to scary to imagine.

 We were all making our way to the airport to hop on the private jet and fly back home. The flight was quite. Paige and i were wrapped up together cuddling on the big layout chair as the boys were sitting in separate chairs as we all slept. Paige and i felt a peck on our foreheads that woke us up. We opened our eyes to see the twins standing over us. Grayson kissed me on the forehead as Ethan kissed Paige on the forehead also. Grayson let out his hand and he pulled you up. Paige slowly became teary, i went over to her as she stood there wiping away a tear with her sleeve and gave her a hug. I whispered in her ear telling her that everything is going to be ok.  We hopped off the jet and walked into a private terminal. We walked out to the car valet and saw my dad who works at the airport and designed the valet. My dad gave us all a hug and took us to see Paige's parents and my mum. We walked out and saw Paige's parents. She ran to them crying and gave them both a group hug crying. I went to my mum with the boys and gave her a hug with slight tears. I wrapped my arms behind the twins waist with me standing in the middle and held them close. Paige came over with her parents. The twins hugged Paige's parents and we started making our way to Paige's home. I was scared on how Paige will be when we go into Caleb's room. 

We arrived at Paige's home and we walked inside. As soon as we stepped inside there was a cold gust of wind that gave us instant goosebumps. It was airy and not the same, how were we going to overcome this. Paige walked over to me and grabbed my hand. We started walking up stairs and went into her bedroom leaving the twins downstairs. We both sat on her bed and didn't talk until i broke the silence. 

Y/n: Are you ready?

Paige: I don't know.

Y/n: Want me to come with you. I can go in with you for a bit and then leave you to have some time alone?

Paige: Yeah.

Y/n: Ok.

I stood up still holding hands with Paige. We walked out of her room and started walking towards Caleb's room. As we were walking past the steps we saw the twins downstairs waiting. They gave concerned looks, i gave a weak smile back. We were at the door and Paige gripped my hand tighter. I placed my other hand on top and rubbed her hand gently to calm her down. We took a slow step into the bedroom and stood quite. Tears began to prick at my eyes and a tear drop gently leaves my eyes and places a warm streak on my cheek. I looked over at Paige and water filled her eyes. I gave her a hug and left the room. 

I closed the door behind me and took a deep breathe in and out. I walked fast towards the bathroom wiping away tears and went past the twins who were still looking up from downstairs. Grayson saw me crying so he ran upstairs following me. I walked into the bathroom and leaned over the sink putting all my body weight onto the hand basin and breathing heavily. I felt to hands on my waist and i looked up at the mirror to see the reflection of Grayson behind me. I spun round and went into his chest as he wrapped his arms around me tight rubbing my back.

Grayson: I'm here it's ok.

Y/n: Why does this keep happening to us, i said through tears.

Grayson: It's life's way of challenging us, he said as he continued to stroke my back.

Y/n: I wish it would all just stop or at least slow down, i said as i brung my head over to face him.

Grayson: I know. I do too but sadly we can't control that, He said as he placed his hands on my face looking deeply in my eyes.