Subject 1-A: Midoriya, Izuku (Villain Deku)

Chapter 17: Submit

I hadn't been unstrapped from the chair for two days. Toga would eat with me, though I was usually in too much pain to enjoy the food. She would ask me to try her new...er...creations. I didn't want to know what she fed me, knowing her personality and quirk. I just ate and told her it was good. It made her squeal, which would have weirded me out in any other situation, but I was in too much pain to care.

I was half conscious when Shigaraki was suddenly looming over me. "Are you done resisting?"

I tried to talk back, but my tongue felt heavy and I couldn't get the words around it. I simply shook my head as much as I could manage. The next thing I knew, I felt a blunt hit to my stomach. It was Shigaraki's fist.

I let a small grunt of pain escape my lips. My body was so battered, and it was all his fault.

"It'll stop. Remember, back before you ran away."

"Da..bi...beat...me...eve...ry..day..." I managed to get out of my mouth.

"He only hit you because you deserved it." Shigaraki spat. "You were a brat who needed to be taught discipline. We wouldn't do this if you weren't so stubborn, Izuku."

The sound of my name from his lips made me shudder. "Stop...hurts..."

"I won't stop until you either submit or die. Either one that comes first."

"J...ust...kill...me."

"I thought a hero never gives up."

I whimpered. "I...m...no....hero." My voice cracked. Tears were coming down my face. "I'm....just a...quirk...less...lo...ser."

"All Might really shouldn't have given you false hope." Shigaraki patted my shoulder. "But I know. I know how useless you are and I still decided to take you in."

I whimpered again. "Captured...me."

"Yes, but we got you away from the people who would just laugh at you. All Might replaced you. How long were you gone for? Three months? That's way too soon to replace someone."

"..."

"We risked our necks to get a hold of you. We could've been caught and thrown in jail." Shigaraki tightened his grip on my shoulder, careful not to use all five of his fingers. "What do you think you should say to that?"

"T...hank...you?" I asked quietly, barely above a whisper.

"What was that?" Shigaraki asked, though I knew he heard those words.

"Thank you," I said with everything I could muster.

"The hero's might have thrown you away, but we at the League haven't. You're not useless to us. You're a good shot and, if need be, good bait for those hero's who wronged you. They won't kill you."

I simply nodded. "Will you stop...hurting me...if I join you?"

Shigaraki's words had gotten to me and I was in too much pain to think clearly about my decision.

"If you join us, there's no backing out, got it?"

I nodded weakly. "Just don't...brainwash me...please."

"We won't have to this time. However..." He place his hand on the straps holding me down. "If you betray us, you know what'll happen to you."

I nodded, shaking the dust that used to be my bonds off of me. I stood up, but my legs couldn't hold me up. I stumbled into the table where Shigaraki kept his torture weapons. I winced as I slit myself with one of the knives, but I didn't really feel the pain. What's a little more lost blood?

Shigaraki called in Toga and she brought me to the bar, where she took out a first aid kit. "We lost our doctor, so you're gonna have to heal naturally this time!" She seemed too excited.

She took my arm, and without even cleaning the wound, put a bandaid over it.

"Toga, I'll take it from here," Kurogiri said from behind the bar counter. Toga pouted, but let the man take care of me, properly this time. 

"I'm glad you saw reason, Midoriya. I'm sorry about the way you were treated."

I didn't answer him. My throat was too dry.

He just finished wrapping his arm when Twice came into the room. "Mist! Get me a drink! Oh, so your alive kid? You part of our group? I don't think you were tortured enough! It's good to have you." He held out his hand. I was hesitant to take it, but I mustered up the courage and did so. Twice just smiled and crushed my hand.

Kurogiri place a glass of water and a plate of food in front of me. I chugged the water then scarfed down the food. It was way better then what Toga had given me.

Soon after I had finished the meal, I saw it again way too soon. I puked it up on the bar floor, holding my stomach as tears leaked out of my eyes. Even after my stomach had rejected the food, I was still left dry heaving.

"Hm...I think you ate too fast." Kurogiri said. "You haven't had proper nutrients in a few days, so that meal might have been a little too heavy." He began to wipe up the mess. "I'll give you something your stomach can handle."

I nodded and wiped the puke off my chin. I didn't feel like eating anymore.

As I sipped on a glass of water, Dabi and Shigaraki joined everyone else in the bar.

I didn't realize it, but when they walked into the room, a shiver went down my spine. I knew I'd never be comfortable with them since they'd put me through so much pain.

Dabi came over to me, and I tried to shrink. My eyes went to the floor, unable to look him in the eyes.

"So, you finally cracked."

I winces and a sob escaped my lips. I didn't know why I was crying. Tears leaked out of my eyes. Maybe it was fear, maybe it was because I realized what I had agreed to. I wanted to be dead. Death was better than being a villain. My one and only dream had been crushed out of me. If only I'd been as strong as All Might. If only I had learned to control my powers...

"Back off, Dabi," Shigaraki said. "Don't hurt him unless you have to. We don't want him running back to the heroes. The heroes who give false hope. The liars who tell people 'Everything will be okay' when its obvious that death is imminent." Shigaraki ran a hand through my hair. "But we don't lie. No false hope. We know that Izuku here might have been an enemy in the past, but let's put it behind us. Let's give the quirkless boy, who everyone else threw aside, a purpose."

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Okay, I know this chapter doesn't make much sense and people will be like "this isn't a good reason!" But I had to get through writer's block somehow! If I go back and hate it, I'll rewrite it!

Also, mental trauma. I kinda want to have Izuku descend into at least a little insanity, but its not easy when your writing from first person point of view, but I'll try.

I'm slowly getting ideas for what to do next, but please don't rush me. I just started school and I'm doing my first collage class which is a bit overwhelming for me so