Nearly Alone

Chapter Eight

(Hi everyone sorry I had a little bit of writer's block but here is my next chapter hope you like it).

Almost two months have passed since I last sat and saw Skylar and everyday since ,the bus stop was the same, the wait for the bus was the same and the group of deliquents was the same,

surprisingly they didn't bother me this time but it dosent matter but I overheard them talking about how there band aren't able to get any gigs.

they were actually disappointed for the first time since ive met them.

you know I've always wanted to be in a group or band but I'm not good at  anything that im worth nothing as my mom says.

When the bus came I head to my usual seat but this time I was surprised like if i had seen a ghost. I stood there like a statue then she sees me with blue eyes and  she smiles at me as I walk she scoots over to the window so I can sit with her,

but i don't and her smile disappears her eyes filled with embarrassment,so she looks to the window.

in my mind I'm fighting it feels as if I'm being held against my will not to fall in love,

my mind is telling me go on talk but my heart is telling me sure go on go get your heart broken again she won't REALLY love you anyway.

It's and endless war between love and hate,I just get frustrated that I don't even know what to do anymore but solve my problems with pain.so I get a pencil out and stick it into the palm of my hand slowly and start moving it up and down against my skin,

my mind and heart welcome the pain as it's only depressant,finally I hear nothing but pure silence as I move the pencil to my wrist and i close my eyes ,

I slightly flinch when a hand touches my shoulder and my eyes open wide as I'm half asleep due to the likelyness of the pain.

as I look around I see the school we are getting close and as look at my hand and wrist I see tiny bits of skin and blood.

(Hi sorry if the chapter was kinda disturbing but please don't stop reading please vote, and  comment it would mean so much to me thank you)