Please eat // Yoonmin

6

~two weeks later~

Yoongi and i have been together for two weeks now! We've told our families and friends but not the general public yet.
We've been on three dates now. One was at a restaurant, another was at the movies and the last one we went to the movies and a restaurant after.
He's been getting me to eat a bit more lately.
I'm up to one normal sized meal and a snack or two a day.
He always says how proud he is that I'm eating again.
I've been getting him not to stay up too late as well and when he does i always insist on staying up with him.
I haven't told the others about my eating disorder but they'll probably figure it out soon anyway.

It was late. It was one of those nights when i would stay up with Yoongi. I was next to him thinking about random stuff when he jumped up and threw his writing book at the wall and yelled, "I CANT DO IT ANYMORE!!" He crouched on the floor and started crying into his hands. This must have been really upsetting him because Yoongi is not much of a cryer.

I got up and ran over to him. "Hey. Shh... Its ok." He hugged me and i drew little circles on his back to try and comfort him.

"But its not ok! I cant deal with the stress anymore!" He sobbed hard into my neck.
The guys were at a party but we decided to hang back and relax.
We got up and walked to the bed.

"Hyung why didn't you tell me it was getting too much?"

"I didn't want you to worry about my problems along with your own." He answered with a shaky voice.

"Awe Yoons, we're a couple and you're my best friend. I dont care if i was dying i would still listen to your problems." He gave a weak smile. "Come on its late. We need to get some sleep." He nodded and we lied down.
His breaths were less shaky and he was starting to relax.
I soon heard his soft snores.

~In the morning~

"HELP!!!!!" We heard a scream from downstairs. I looked at Yoongi and we ran to see what happened.
This was the last thing i was expecting...

I turned to Yoongi and started crying into his chest. Everyone was crying too.
Jungkook was holding Taehyung on the floor... Blood running down his arms... A note next to him...
Jungkook kept repeating 'why' over and over.
Jin came back in from calling an ambulance.
"The ambulance will be here in a minute..." He mumbled.

The ambulance arrived after a couple of minutes later. Jungkook went with him and we were all going to go with Jin.
Before we left i picked up the note.
"Um... Guys... Can i read the note?"

They looked at each other. "Yeah, but if there's anything that is addressed to someone specifically and it's not you dont read it." Jin said. I nodded.

Dear guys,
I'm sorry that you found me like this... And I'm sorry that i actually did it... Everything was just getting too much for me... Please don't blame yourselves for this it was none of you guy's fault.
As I'm writing this I'm thinking back to all the good times we all had together... That time Jimin, Jungkook and i played hide and seek and i hid under the mattress...
The time we went on a rollercoaster and Hobi freaked out...
The time Hobi freaked out when the snake was on him at a photoshoot...
When i jumped on Jungkook's back during a concert and he didn't even care... 
All the concerts we did together...
Just everything...
I hope you can forgive me but it was getting too much...
I tried to talk about it but that didn't help...
Again I'm sorry to leave you guys like this...
I love you all soooo much.

-Taehyung xxx

I couldn't stop crying. This was so heartbreaking...
To think that i couldn't help and i didn't see any signs made me feel like a really shitty friend...
Yoongi came over and hugged me. It wasn't enough and i was still crying.
Besides Yoongi he was one of my closest friends...
I hope he makes it...

A/N GUYS DONT MURDER ME I KNOW YOU PROBABLY HATE ME RN BUT PLEASE DONT MURDER ME!!!! I almost cried when i wrote this. Will he survive? Or will he be ded?