Please eat // Yoonmin

8

I woke up.
I really didn't want to get up.
This whole thing hit me and the guys pretty hard.
Finding out one of your best friends wants to die isn't the best thing.
At least he's still alive...
"Good morning." Yoongi mumbled.

"Morning..." I would say 'good' but it really isn't. "Did you sleep well?"

"Not really..." He answered.

"Same..." He snuggled closer to me, resting his head on my shoulder. "I just wish this whole thing never happened... I wish Tae wasn't stressed or anything... I hope he gets better..."

"I know bub. We all do..." There was a knock on the door.

"Its Jin can i come in?" We said yes and he came in and sat on the bed. "I know the past few days have been... Not that great, so i wanted to see how you guys are doing. I don't want anyone to get hurt again." Jin is a literal angel. He always puts others before himself.

"Don't worry hyung, we're ok. I mean we're pretty upset but you don't need to worry." Yoongi nodded in agreement.

"Ok. But if you need to talk, dont hesitate to ask. Anyway we're going to go to the hospital to go see Tae, did you want to come?"

I looked at Yoongi. "Yeah that would be nice." He said.
So we got ready and went to the hospital. Jungkook was already there. He came home last night but he went really early this morning.
Surprisingly Tae was pretty happy, well at least he was acting happy.
He asked how we were and i guess it was an as 'normal' as you can get conversation considering the circumstances.
I was glad he was going to be released tomorrow.
There were a few things that the doctor recommend we change. We have to check on him regularly and he would have to go to a therapy session at least once a week.

We had all decided not to tell the fans about what happened.
When we went home, we thought it would be nice to watch a movie to take our minds off of things.
Taehyung insisted that Jungkook should go home with us to rest. He said (and i quote) 'You look like the literal walking dead. Aka Yoongi, and nobody wants to look like that so go home and get some rest.'
We all laughed and Yoongi didn't even bother trying to make a comeback (probably because he agreed).

So we were all sat on the couch watching some horror movie. It was a bit boring but i didn't mind.
It had been a while since we'd done something like this.
Jungkook fell asleep on the single person recliner. The poor thing, he must've been exhausted.
I would be too if anything like this happened to Yoongi.

~In the evening~

"Guys! Dinner is ready!" Jin yelled from the kitchen. Isn't that fucking perfect... I really didn't want to have dinner... Since Tae was in the hospital I'd completely lost my appetite...
Like when i would read the comments about my weight...
It was like i was back at the start again...

It smelled so good. He'd made chicken curry and rice... My favourite...
I really wanted to have some, but i just couldn't.
I got a little bit on my plate. I thought maybe when i took a bite, i could get a napkin and make it look like i was just wiping my mouth but i was actually spitting the food into the napkin.
Yeah... This should work...
I could also swallow some of it and vomit up later.
I just hope nobody notices...

Thankfully Yoongi didn't mention anything after dinner.
"I haven't showered in a few days so I'm gonna go do that." I said.

"Ok."
If he suspected anything i would have to be quick.
I turned on the shower.
I'll have to be  no more than 5 minutes... I thought before going over to the toilet.

When I'd finished, i went back into the room.
Once again Yoongi didn't say anything.
Good. I don't need to add anymore stress to him. He doesn't need that right now...

It was late.
Yoongi was writing.
When Yoongi is sad or something, he stays up late and writes.
He told me it was his 'coping mechanism'.
And that was exactly what he was doing tonight. I hate seeing him upset... I wish he didn't worry so much...

Yoongi's POV

I really wanted to cry.
But I'm not gonna cry infront of Jimin... Not again...
I was about to break down.
"Hey, Chim, I'm just going to the toilet." He nodded.
Finally i can let everything out...
I walked in and locked the door, finally letting my feelings take over.
I'm quite sure how long i was in there.
I was in there long enough for my eyes to not be puffy and red anymore.
Also long enough for Jimin to fall asleep.
I wanted to just crawl into bed next to him but i didn't.
I wrote lyrics all night.
Before i knew it, it was morning.

"Morning hyung." He said.

"Good morning Chim. Wait, morning?" He nodded. I looked at my phone. "Holy shit its already 8:30..."

"Hyung didn't you sleep last night?"

"...No... I'm sorry..."

"Its ok. But you need to sleep otherwise you'll just be tired all the time."

I sighed. "I know... Anyway, isn't Tae coming home today?" His face lit up.

"I forgot about that! I'm glad he's coming home, he needs to be around people at the moment. Also, come here and get. Some. Fucking. Sleep." I did as he said.