For The Love

She stuck her tongue in and I caught my breath. Whatever she was doing to me I couldn't breathe. She licked me slowly and I was just letting her tongue explore me.

"Papi I can't-"

"Just let it out you don't have to hold back," she teased me. She kissed me and straddled on top of me.

Her flat chest made me wanna laugh sometimes, but we had this gender conversation a long time ago. She does what she wants to on her own time and whatever she did with her body was on her own accord. I just had to be there for her and support whatever decisions she made. She told me her pronouns, I just looked at her from top to bottom. If I didn't know her I'd think she was a guy like everyone we came into contact with did. 

She tried to keep it from me that she was going to therapy and taking testosterone and I didn't want to pry, I just wanted her to let me in so I could support her.

I was in love with Lee, I've been in love with for years.

Even when we were young and in middle school we tried to date but it didn't work out because of infidelity on her part. It breaks my heart to think about it but I was stupidly in love with Lee and always would take her back over and over again.

Stupid I know but I just love her too much. But I've learned from it. I never say I love you unless I mean it. I'm not so trusting anymore and I'm not as naïve. She made me realize that I had issues trusting the wrong people but she always was around and was the only family I had. Besides people on the internet and through traveling I didn't really have a shit ton of friends. Being around Lee didn't help, her job made it hard to be around her and have a social life.

|Two Months Later|

I woke up and looked over to see her sleeping. 

Half asleep she pushed out, "What are you doing?" 

I stopped for a few seconds and began rubbing my butt on her again. It didn't take long for her to open her eyes and turn towards me.

"You think your funny teasing me like that, huh?" She looked at me and I just kept my eyes close pushing up against her.

Lee's POV

"Liyala," I called out for her when I stepped into the lobby, "Liyala?"

I was her first everything practically. Her first love, her first official girlfriend, she lost her virginity to me, I was her first girl kiss, I was her first heartbreak, and the first person who cheated on her but I was followed by others. She was a couple of my firsts too; my first real love and the first I let see the real me. I would die for her and the day she told me that she wanted me to take her virginity I did even though she was scared. I tried going slow but I got lost in the moment.

"Aleeyah Malicious Wayne." Yes, my middle name is Malicious as in vicious.

"What did I tell you about my government like come on babygirl." I looked around for her and when I found her she was pissed sitting on the couch. "Liyala Aurora Maleficent Roman," I called her by her gov and she just looked at me and threw my phone at me. I walked over to hug her until I noticed she had my phone in her hand.

"Why do you have my phone?" I asked curiously cause I don't like peeps going through my shit. She knew that too.

"Don't start with that shit. I was ordering something to eat then all these messages and shit started popping up ending the call. I'm so fucking sick of this shit Aleeyah." She started to walk away from me but I stopped her, "Move." 

"No," like hell I was gonna let her leave me like that. I picked her up and put her on my lap. I kissed her on her neck slowly.

"Move Lee...just leave me alone." She called me by my other name, the one that my boys call me by. She never called me Lee when we were alone together unless she was mad or upset with me.