For The Love

Toxic And Torn

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I just looked away from him and exhaled, what the hell could I do? Loving him hurt both of us and our relationship was beyond toxic. I saw it but he wouldn't believe it, he was too in denial to believe it. Lee led the way even though nobody wanted Lee here. Lee's security detail was staying here too and that only furthered my suspicions. Something was going on something he wasn't telling me. Why I don't know but I told him not to lie to me, let's see how long it'll take him to hide things from me again. I knew my friends didn't like him, he didn't like most of them. He felt like I shouldn't need to hang around other guys.

Turning over in sheets it was our fourth day here, I stayed in the residence building instead of the other one with everyone else. Something about this was off and I could feel it in my gut. I just wanted Lee to tell me what the hell was going on.

I was still sore from the first time I let Lee enter me. I had a low pain tolerance and my period ended that week so my body still sensitive. All we did was find different ways to entangle ourselves and the sheets.

Lee refused to let me leave the hotel without security present, we fought about it twice and he wouldn't budge.

I exhaled and tried to relax, Lee had been really dependent on me after that first time. It was as if I had unknowingly accepted a marriage proposal, I took a nap and woke up to see Lee gone. Thank God, I need space. The knocking on the door had woken me up completely. I slid out of the bed and opened the door to see that Lee was nowhere to be found in the bedroom. Chad, Scotty, Stiles, Farao, Miguelito, Spence, Jeffi, and Balid were all standing at the door smiling in shorts and swim suits.

"We've been here about one week and haven't seen you since we got here," Scotty said his piece. They exaggerated but Lee did hold me hostage in this room.

"I knew we should've left without him, he wants you all holed up in this room," Farao's protective self grumbled at me.

"I just want a nice relaxing spa day they want to hop in the pool and drive around the town," Balid chimed in.

"Where is that ass-" Farao began charging in the room before Miguelito and Stiles held him back.

"Hurry up so we can hang by the beach after getting some breakfast," Balid smiled.

"I'll shower and get ready now," I rushed through the rooms.

I held myself together and got ready by showering and moisturizing, I slipped on a bathing suit and some shorts. I looked at my body in the mirror I had gained weight, I frowned. I needed to stretch and move my legs more, I reached on my tippy toes.

I exited the bathroom to see them sitting around on and around furniture, "What are you guys planning to go do today?"

"Hang in the sun by the pool and figure out what was going on for our next and last week here. We've kept everything on pause because you've been MIA," Stiles spoke up.

"Sorry," I genuinely apologized.

Farao plainly said, he never liked Lee and he wasn't going to start today, "Why do I feel like he has something to do with this?"

"He's too demanding, you deserve better," Scotty glared at Stiles.

I wanted to say something but my voice got lost in my throat, "Yet I still love him and I'm still stuck on him."