Criminal Minds One Shots

Unstable (Hotch x reader)

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You pulled into the school parking lot and your best friend's son climbed into your car. You watch Jack whenever Aaron has to leave for a case.

"Is he home yet?" He asked you excitedly. It broke your heart every time you had to tell him no.

"No bud but he should be soon." The look on the 6-year-olds face was devastating. The short drive back to Aaron's apartment was silent. You pulled into a parking spot but Jack didn't move. "What's wrong Jack?" you asked him.

"Can I ask you a question Y/N?" he said. You told him of course but were shocked by the question.

"Are you going to be my new mom if something happens to dad?" His face was serious as well as his voice. You thought for a moment before speaking again.

"I'm not sure bud. The only way that would happen was if dad and I got married. Other wise if something happened I think you'd live with your aunt." I said turning to face him in the back seat.

Aaron was your best friend. You both had feelings for each other and you each knew about it though you pushed them away because you can be very unstable and you don't want to hurt Jack if you do anything to harm yourself. Aaron doesn't know what you do to yourself. If he did he'd probably want to keep you away from him and Jack completely. Let's face it, you're a mess.

You're surprised he never used his profiling skills on you to see the way you act and figure it out. You always wore long sleeves or lots of bracelets. You never wore shorts. You didn't like showing the skin on your stomach to begin with so the scars and cuts all over it added to your reasoning. You hated yourself and were surprised the Aaron hasn't caught it in the 3 months you've been doing it.

You and the small boy walked into the apartment. He almost immediately started his homework. You sat down at the kitchen table with him and read your book.

"Y/N?" Jack said. You looked up at him.

"What do you need bud?" You asked. You didn't hear the apartment door open and neither did Jack.

"Will you marry my daddy so you can be my mommy?" Jack asked. You laughed a little.

"I can't buddy." you said simply.

"Why not? You both love each other. Isn't that all that matters?" He asked again. He had a point of course but for you, it was a lot more complicated than that. Aaron stood on the other side of the door way listening to your conversation.

"Well usually yes, but it's a lot more complicated for us." He nodded before turning back to his homework. Aaron walked into the kitchen.

"Hi, Jack." He said.

"DAD!!" He yelled and ran to him, almost falling out of his chair. You smiled at the exchange. You got up while they were talking and headed to his guest room, where you stayed when Aaron was gone. You start packing your things.

There was a knock on the door before it was opened then shut again. You turned your head. It was Aaron of course. "Are you not going to speak to me? Just pack up and leave?" you shrugged. "I was actually hoping you'd stay. Move in with me seeing as you're here all the time anyway when I need you with Jack." You reached over you grabbed your phone charger and your sleeve slid up your arm. Aaron watched this. 

"I knew it." He muttered. You turned to look at him.

"Excuse me?" you knew what he was talking about but you were going to deny it.

"Don't play dumb with me Y/N. You think I haven't noticed your behavior change over the past few months. I know you and this-" He paused and pulled your sleeve up. "This isn't the only way or place you've been hurting yourself." He spoke softly but sternly. Tears welled in your eyes. He wrapped his arms around you and let you cry into his chest.

"I heard your conversation with Jack. He's right you know. I do love you." He said and kissed the top of your head. You pulled away from Aaron and continued packing. "If you don't start talking to me about this I'm gonna tell you what I think is going on." you stayed silent. "Alright then. You broke up with your boyfriend Sam about 3 months ago. Now I think we both know how horrible that relationship was." You went wide eyed. He knew? "Yes Y/N, I figured out you were being abused but you left him before I could do anything. The way he treated you made you lose your self-worth. You hate yourself now. Your body is littered with scars from cuts and burns as well as fresh ones. You're also extremely pale which made me realize I haven't seen you eat in quite some time either. Am I wrong?" you sat on the bed and looked at your hands then shook your head.

"You know I love you and I know you love me too but you're scared to be around another man like that. I want to help you Y/N. Please move in with me for right now. You basically live here anyway. That way I can keep an eye on you when I am home."

"I-I can't" was all you could manage. He questioned you of course. "I don't want to hurt you or Jack more than I already have." He knelt in front of you.

"You're not going to hurt us Y/N. We both want you here. We both love you." He gently pulled your sleeve up again and placed soft kisses on the raised scars.

"Okay," you said. You both stood. "I'll move in." He grinned wildly. He pulled you close to him and pressed his lips to yours. You were shocked but kissed back. He pulled away a second later.

"Sorry. I- uh don't know wh-" You cut him off by kissing back. You were going to get better. It's going to be hard but with these two boys by your side, you can do it.