Austin and Ally- Love Comes Around

I don't know.

I am siting on the floor on my bathroom with my back against the wall looking between the tests and the box. This cannot be happening. I drop the tests to the floor and look around, Oh my god. What am I going to do? How can I tell Austin? Crap, This baby may be Alex’s. I start thinking back and I remember me and Alex used protection, but that doesn’t always work. Ugh, What did I get myself into?

I put my head in my hands. I can’t believe this. One baby fine accident, two babies, eh we messed up, three babies, when we will ever learn. I am 18 and have been pregnant three times now. This is so unreal. I feel like I should wake up any minute and this is all gonna be a horrible dream.  I sigh and look at my phone, I need to get this confirmed before I do anything. I unlock my phone and call my OBGYN.

The nurse answers and I hear my voice small and scared, “Hello, is there anyway I can get in today?” “Let me check.” I hear a laugh, “You are in luck dear, we just had a cancelation. If you can get here in ten minutes we will see you.” I smile, “Thank you that would be great.” I hear a laugh again, “Name?” I smile again, “Ally Dawson.” I hear silence then, “Oh, Miss. Dawson, I got you right here. We will see you in ten minutes.”

I hang up and grab the test and boxes. I walk out and walk into my closet. I grab one of m purses and sip them in it then put it back on the shelve. I sigh and walk downstairs to see Austin absorbed in a movie. I can’t tell him, I may be pregnant and it might be Alex’s that will crush everything we have gained.

I walk over with a smile, “Hey baby, I’m leaving now.” He looks up and smiles with that amazing smile that just reaches his eyes and makes them sparkle. He leans up and kisses me before he pulls back, “Do you want to pick up something for dinner or I can cook?’ I look around, “I’ll get something.” He nods and is tart to walk out the door when I hear, “Be careful, I love you.” I sigh and close the door and sprint to my car.

I reach the doctors and let out a deep breath before grabbing my phone and keys and heading inside. I walk up to the counter, “Ally Dawson.” She smiles, “Right on time, have a seat and we will call you back shortly.” I nod and sit down. I get my phone out and look at it and decide I can’t do anything right now, I’m freaking out to bad. This feels like a year ago al over again, Me alone in the place and Austin not knowing. Why now? Why does  this have to happen now? I hear my name and smile getting up and following the nurse back. I can do this maybe the test were a false positive.

I sit down in the chair and look around at the pictures on the wall and they haven’t changed a bit. I sigh and hear a knock so I look behind me and see the friendly smile of my doctor. “Ally, it is great to see you again.” I look down and she sighs, “Oh no, this isn’t for a check up is it?” I shake my head as I feel the tears coming. I feel someone grab my hand and I look up and see Dr. Harper holding my hand and smiling, “Ally like I told you before, everything will be okay.” I nod and she looks to the table, “Questions first, or you want me to check first?” I look at the table and sigh, “Can we do questions?” Nodding she grabs her papers and stays sitting next to me. “What makes you think you are pregnant?” I feel the tears and sigh, “I took two test and they were both positive, I haven’t been feeling great so I called my physician and they told me to take the test.” She nods and writes something down, “So what have you been feeling?” I think about it, “Well I have been having dizzy spells, I keep feeling like I am gonna be sick, I am forgetting things big things. My back is a little sore but I carry a one year old around. Umm, oh and I have been really sleepy.  Then I went to get ice cream yesterday with Austin and Aubrey and after I got it I didn’t want it no more.”

Nodding she writes it all down, “So when was your last menstrual cycle?” I look down embarrassed, “Honestly, I don’t know. Austin says he is positive I got it last month but I don’t know.”  She writes it all down and smiles up at me. “How about we see if you have a little peanut in there or not?” she stands up and turns on the machines  as I sit watching her. She turns around with the wand in her hand and smiles, “Come on Ally, we have to do it to check.” I nod and walk over getting on the table.

She puts the gel on and I squeal, “I forgot about that.” She laughs and starts to move the wand around. I can’t look, I just can’t. She stops moving the ward and I still wont look. “Ally, honey.” I open my eyes and see her face, “Look?” She moves and I see a little dot. I slump and she smiles, “Say hello to your little peanut.”

I feel the tears and start crying. She rushes over and hugs me, “Ally, don’t cry. It is okay.” I shake my head, “No…no. i…its no..not.” She looks at me confused, “But honey, Austin is here and he will be happy like he was with Aubrey.” I shake my head and sit up, “Y..You don’t under…Understand…” She puts her hand on my shoulder, “Then help me s I can help you.” I sigh and clear my sobs, “I slept with someone else.” She gasps and looks down, “I’m sorry that was unprofessional.” I shake my head and put my head in my hands, “Can you tell me how far along I am so I know who’s it is.” She helps me off the table and brings me to a chair, “Ally, honey, I’m sorry it’s too early to tell.”

Smiling I look up, does that mean it may be Austin’s. She bites her lip, “I can’t tell you yet.” I sigh and she takes my hand, “Talk to me and we can figure something out.” I nod and sigh, “Austin and me took a break and I slept with Alex, you remember him?” She nods, “That was in November, then I got back with Austin and we went to Paris and well I slept with him in December. It was a month apart.” She looks at me and goes back over to the machine, “Ally, I mean I could try to guess but that wouldn’t help anyone.” I nod and look down.

She grabs my hand, “Ally listen to me, Everything will be okay. But you need to tell Austin that you are pregnant and you need to tell Alex too.” I sigh, “Can’t I wait.” She sighs, “Well you can, but wont they be more upset if you hold this out on them.” I shake my head crying again. “I just don’t know what to do.”  She sighs, “I don’t know Ally, I can only tell you what I would do.” I smile, “You are so great. Do you know possibly how far I may be?” She smiles and looks down, “Well you are at least a couple weeks that’s all I can tell you sweetie.” I nod and stand up, “Thank you, I will schedule to come back.” She nods and helps me out, “Wait, do you want your pictures?” I shake my head and she looks down, “Are you sure? Ally, that is your baby either way.” I look down then smile, “Yeah, I will take the pictures.” She smiles and hands them to me.  “Take care sweetie.”

I schedule my next appointment and walk out getting in my car. I sigh and start crying as I look at the picture, “I don’t know what to do. This isn’t right.” I lean on the steering wheel and mumble, “Do I even want this baby?”