A (more) Chaotic Life of an ex Blue Short Guy

Chapter 21

"Sometimes the strongest evil hides in  the most beautiful face."
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Is there something to console me? I asked myself when i'm with the babies that night. Why do i feel like a trash? what do my twins feels if they finds out about my secret in the future? they will hate me..

Is there something to console me? I can't be the way i used to be. The ring Brown gave me turned out to be a possession ring, and he made sure that everyone in his secret circle knows. He doesn't give the ring to just anyone, the last person who he gave it to was his late girl friend who died protecting him. Now i became a sacred person who was protected yet alienated by his circle.

Is there something to console me? this feeling when i had to be nice to every guys i'm with although i never had any feeling for them. Can anyone think of my feeling when i had to sleep with one person during the day and another in the night, while you craved for your significant one that you can't even touch?

Is there something to console me when my heart grow heavier over the times, and your cries doesn't really matters? I need to be strong because there are little lifes depending on me, though i know i'm not that strong. I still cries when i'm hurt, i still yell when i feel it sucks, i still cursed when i'm angry.

My phone buzzing. It can't be Phun, he already called me this night. He never asked me how i get those things i had, the bracelet, ring, and necklace. He once told me to get anything that i want, he will provide it. Just like a good husband does. And he is. My monthly allowance was unlimited but i only use what i needed especially for the babies. As for me, i'm not that important of a person and not a highly maintenance guy so i can save up a lot.

"Sap, Noh? how are you? Hey it's friday night and i have a three days vacation, can i meet you tomorrow?"

It's Earn. He must have a tight schedule, but he manage to find time to call me.

"I'm fine, Earn. You didn't get hurt somewhere, did you? Or have you lost your balls?"

Earn laughed heartily. "Alright, i'll meet you at your apartment?"

"Okay.."
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He can't be more surprise than he is now. His eyes widened and his jaw drops to the floor when he sees me holding Kyrin that morning.

"What? so you've pregnant and have a baby and you didn't told me?" He was craddling Kiryu in his lap, and the image make me laugh. The tough guy and a baby, what could be more amusing?

"Amazing...they're so cute, so much like you. I think i want to stay for a while, i'll help you out with the babies."

I can't be thankful enough. In sundays i usually would allow my assistant to have a day off except if i need to do something outside the routine. Naek was busy with some business project and won't be back until two weeks, not that he really helps anyway. When i stay with him every sunday he usually have another baby sitters to play with my sons while he plays with me *.*

"Fine. Thanks Earn."

It was fun. Earn was a very reliable person, and he really helps with everything. He's even more skilfull than Phun in term of handling my sons! And he plays with them too.

We orders take away food for meals and would talk about non sense the whole day. He would call me 'my sweet Noh' or 'baby' or  any pet names, but didn't go anywhere beyond.

"I'm so sleepy Earn.."

"Then go to sleep. I still want to watch some movie."

I felt save with him around. I slept so well, i dreamt that Phun came home.