My Childhood Friend

Chapter Twenty

© Yv Obregon, 2013

Cady

Conner have decided that he will help his father to run their company. Conner got his own pub called Pegasus. We've been together for 6 years now.

Wow.

For the mean time, I'm the one who's running the pub since Conner and his father runs the Montgomery Accountancy. The gang visits me there sometimes though, then I'd get them a free drink.

We had fights here and there that made me buy an apartment near at the beach, but Conner made it up for me. We went away to Hawaii for a date, romantic right? A one week date. He even asked me to move in with him to his new house, but I know there's still something wrong for him, being on and off to me. He didn't even ask me to marry him yet, I tried to ask him about babies, wrong idea because he told me that we're not having kids yet and he looked irritated. I admit, it was like a stab in the chest. So to my curiosity, I asked him if he was cheating on me, well, wrong idea again because I've never seen him that angry before, that it got me trembling in fear. He didn't say sorry or do anything, and that scared me. What if he doesn't want me anymore? What if he found someone else and fall out of love in me? What if I'm not his muse anymore? What if he doesn't love me anymore?

These passed two months was all about frustrations, good thing Conner had a great day today. He picked me up at his pub, we had shots here and there before we head home and it turns out, he was horny. He kept whispering that he loves me and he was sorry and I tried my best not to cry. I mean, is he trying to end us sooner or later? Even though I tried to convinced myself that everything's fine, I can't stop thinking that there's something he's not telling me.

Talking to my sister felt better, all I did was cry my eyes out and listened to her advice and some insults to Conner, I told her to stop insulting Conner but she only glared at me and said, "stop defending Conner so much, maybe you're forgetting the reason why you're here. I noticed he doesn't respect you anymore, he's not Conner anymore, Cady."

I sniffle, "he does respect me."

"I told you, stop defending him Cady! You know there's something wrong, you told me too! You need to push him and make him tell you what it is." She sighs and pulls me for a hug, "you'll be fine, you dont have to be afraid, it's Conner."

That's what I'm afraid of, if I force him to tell me what was wrong, I might see that side of him that I don't want to see ever again. Not wanting to argue with my sister, I just give her a nod of acknowledgement. I left my sister's place, my sister who is 6 months pregnant for their third girl child.

After my job, I got home by 2 am and not feeling well. First, my world is spinning. Second, my stomach hurts and then I felt like throwing up, so I decided to have a bath and just lie down in the tub. I dried myself when the water starts getting cold, got my pjs on and decided to sleep downstairs since I don't want to face him. Before I fall asleep, I feel someone put a blanket on me to keep me warm, then kisses my forehead and whispers, "I'm sorry, I love you. . .always."

The smell of hot choco and toasted bread awakened me, I smile before opening my eyes and frown.

"Oh sweetie, don't frown." I frown even more.

"Where's Conner?" She gives me a pity smile.

"He left with Mike 10 minutes ago," before I could speak, the bile in my throat makes me run into the bathroom.

"Are you ok?" Jamie rushes, I give her a nod. "Since when you are like this?"

"Yesterday," we went silent.

"Are you-" I cut her off.

"No, Jamie. I'm not. Conner doesn't want that to happened," I whisper, more like choke.