Until the rain burns [ENGLISH VERSION]

Special: |Goodbye Frances|

I notice that I have little life left and when I say little I mean that I do not think that tomorrow I wake up.

I've spent the last two weeks dreaming with Kurt. It was as if I could remember and relive each and every one of the moments we lived together: from our meeting in the bar, our drunkenness, our night escapades and the first time we made love until the wonderful moment that he took me to a lookout in his old van and we spent the night watching the stars.

I'm really excited, I want to go with him already. He's been waiting a long time, and so am I.

Before I left I wanted to fulfill my promise to take care of Frances and I want to tell her a few things, since Courtney always kept her away from me.

I get out of bed slowly. My legs barely support me. As I can I am dragging myself to the phone at the entrance of the house.

Once I arrived, I rummaged through my old address book and found the phone number of Frances's house.

- Yes?

- Frances?

- Yes, who is it?

- I am Aisha... I do not know if you will remember me because your mother took care of separating you of me since you were a little girl, but I would like to speak with you.

- Of course I remember you... She told me that you were dead.

- That's why I'm calling you. I doubt that tomorrow I wake up. I'm noticing dying and I wanted to see you. I have to tell you something.

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Frances accepted my request and came home. When I opened the door and saw her, my eyes flooded with tears. The adult daughter of the love of my life was more than forty years old and she still as precious as ever. I was proud that she formed a family and made a living without using her last name to get things done.

- Oh my God Frances... - I hugged her - You still have his eyes...

I invited her to come in and helped me to sit on the sofa and then stand beside me.

- Aisha I'm very intrigued...

- You will see darling... Your father asked me before leaving to take care of you and to make sure that nothing happened to you, but especially that you were happy. Your mother distanced me from you because she doesn't like me since the beginning and accused me of your father's death. I know that you probably think the same thing...

- Aisha does not matter. -he interrupted.

- If it matters. Your father committed suicide, Frances. He did it in front of me. -I began to cry without realizing it- I always loved him, you know. I never stopped. I never stopped needing him. I miss him every single day of my life. Believe it or not, even if you have not been taught this since you were a child, you were everything to him. He never left you alone. Even if you did not see him, he has always been and will continue to be with you Frances.

- He left us alone to my mother and me. He was selfish.

- Do not say that. He was at a mentally unstable time and made a grave mistake that should never have happened. -I cried louder- Do you think he did not love you?

I extended her a picture of the two of them in which Kurt was smiling as he looked at her.

- It was in his wallet when he died. -I whispered.

Frances began to cry with me.

- What is all this now? -she sob.

- I'm going to go with him and I want you to be aware of what I wanted. You were everything to him and you will remain.

Seeing that no one stopped crying, we hugged each other tightly until we all ventured out. I knew that was probably the last time I saw that woman.

Once Frances left it was already night and I lay in bed just waiting. The pains were invading my body and I took several painkillers. I just wanted to die. I just wanted to see him again. To listen to his voice. I closed my eyes as hard as I could and gave my last sighs. I exhaled my last breath.

- Aisha, thanks for everything... I missed you so much...