Mine

Ch. 7

I look up and see Harry is still sleeping on the floor where we were last night,I carefully get up and walk out to the kitchen.

"Morning" I jump up a bit I figured Louis would still be sleeping.

"Jesus Lou you scared me" he smiles and gets up from the table

"Sorry Alex" he winks at me, which causes me to give a little laugh. It feels good to laugh again, I real laugh even if it was small it will still be better then any fake laugh.

"Louis" I trail off not knowing how I should start the conversation about yesterday up.

"Yes?" he sits back down and gestures to the spot next to him for me to sit down as well. Which I do.

"Can we talk about yesterday?" I crack my knuckles an awful habit I've picked up when I'm nervous.

"Yeah, what happened in Harry's room?" I look up at Louis for a brief moment before looking down at my hands.

"Well I waited a while for Harry to open his door. And while I was waiting I could here him crying and talking to himself. Then I heard the door handle jiggle and his door cracked open. I waited a minute or so for him to come out but he never did. So I walked in and"

I paused as I could feel that lump in my throat I get before I cry. The worst feeling in the world.

"Alex? what happened when you walked in?" He sounds desperate right now to know.

"I-I walked in and I saw Harry sitting across the room with razor in his hands and h-he" i start full on crying now playing back this horrible memory in my mind.

"H-he was getting ready to cut himself." I can't keep the tears from pouring out of my eyes. And soon my vision becomes blurry

"Wh-what" Louis voice cracks and he starts crying to. I get up and hug Louis while we both cry. I'm not even finished yet at Louis and I are almost out if tears.

"L-Louis, yesterday wouldn't have been the first time he would have cut" I whisper in his ear. Has he hugs me tighter

"Alex, love you broke him." He says in my hair.

I broke him. I made him do this. This Is all my fault. I'm a horrible person.

"This is all my fault." I tell Louis has we break away

"Alex, no its not all your fault. Harry had to do something to make you leave him. So it's not all your fault."

But I did stuff too. We both had a fair share of fucked up moments through out our relationship.

"Louis what is going to happen?" I pull away from him searching his face for some type of an answer.

"Alex what do you mean?" he gives me a questioning look.

"Everything Louis! every little thing! whats going to happen, things just can't magically get better. What's going to happen when you guys go back on tour? Harry and I, nothing will change, it will be going back to the same relationship that made me leave. What's going to happen" I raise my voice but it slows into a whisper.

I want to be with Harry, I love him so much but things are complicated. I want us to work out so so much but part of me knows deep down that Harry and I won't be together the way we want.

"Alex, I don't know, that's between Harry and you. And as for tour Im not sure, there's a slim chance that you could go with us but I wouldn't get your hopes up babe" I sigh he's right. Harry and I need to deal with this.

"I'm going to talk with Harry, I don't know when we will be done but whatever happens I need you to stay out here, if you hear us screaming, throwing things promise me you will just stay out here louis." He nods his head and I walk into Harry's room.