To Be or Not To Be ***CONTINUATION*** <<COMPLETED>>

Can We Just Get Everything Back to Normal?

Hey! So, I'm trying to make this happier now because I'm happier and I'm slightly disappointed in those chapters so I might just delete them and make this a fluff fanfic.

Anyway, let's get on to the story.

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Cas' POV

I wake up to the sound of Michael and Lucifer's daughter, Anna, yelling at Gabe.

"Gabriel! What did you do to my hair?! Stop laughing you little sh...rimp!"

I sit up and climb out of bed. I walk to my door and open it.

"It's too early for you two to be arguing! Go back to bed!" I yell at them.

I  close my door and walk back to bed. As soon as I get comfortable again my alarm clock goes off.

"This is why nobody likes you!" I yell at it turning it off.

Someone knocks lightly on my door. "Cas, get up and stop yelling at inanimate objects," Lucifer says peeking his head into my room.

"But Luci, it's fun."

"You have school in half an hour get up."

"Fine."

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Dean's POV

"Dean, wake up. You and Sammy have to walk to school today, Bobby needs me in early today  and my car isn't starting."

(I don't remember if Bobby is already in here. If he is can you tell me so I can fix it?)

"Okay," I say. I cringe at how high my voice sounds today. Of course, the dysphoria decides to drop in today. Why not on the weekend when I could just stay in my room in large pajamas and watch youtube and read fan fiction?

I climb out of bed and walk to my closet. I pull on my binder, wincing slightly.

Shit.

I quickly pull out my calendar that tracks the hell of the month. (This is how I will say I'm on my period from now on.) Of course, it's starting sometime this week. Because I need something besides dysphoria to make sure my week isn't good.

I pull a large t-shirt over my binder and change into my jeans.

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I sit at a table in the cafeteria with Jo, Charlie, and Meg as they talk about the latest Doctor Who episode.

"That's not allowed to be the last episode until Christmas," Meg says. "I won't let it."

"I don't think you can control that," Charlie says. "Besides it's Moffat what else would you expect that wouldn't injure your soul more?"

"True."

"Okay, it's decided, I am never living with Gabriel when I'm older," Cas says sitting down next to me, "I don't want to end up with electric blue hair like Anna did."

I stare at him for a second before hugging him tightly.

"Woah, hi Dean, I missed you too."

"Dean chill, your gay is showing," Jo says.

I pull away from Cas.

"So, Cas, how are the Novaks so far?" Meg asks.

"Good."

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I sit at the same table as this morning with all four of them but this time Sammy and Gabriel join us.

"Okay Dean, what's wrong?" Meg asks.

I look at her confused while I take a bit of my ham and cheese sandwich.

"You haven't spoken all day. It's like the first day we met."

I shake my head and eat a slice of apple.

I stand up and walk out of the cafeteria. I walk to the restroom. I don't notice Cas following me until I'm bent over on the trash can puking up my breakfast.

"Dean!"

I cough and gag.

"Why did you follow me?" I ask, pulling my voice down as low as I can manage.

"I was worried about you. You haven't spoken all day. You even refused to speak when asked to debate with Azazel."

"You were worried about me? How could you be worried about me?"

"Because I care about you and you're my friend."

"I don't have friends I just have people who know my secret and people who don't."

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Cas' POV

"I don't have friends I just have people who know my secret and people who don't," Dean says. His voice sounds a little bit off. It's higher than usual.

"That's not true," I say. "There's nothing you could tell me that would cause me to stop being your friend." I kneel beside him

"Are you straight?" he asks, looking towards me.

"What does that have to do with--?"

"Just answer the question, Cas."

"I'm about as straight as a rainbow disco ball in a gay dance club."

He laughs. "That's a new one." He groans and leans closer to the trash.

I rub his back. "You probably ate something bad or something."

"I didn't."

"How do you know?"

"I usually get sick whenever I wear my binder when I start my period."

"Oh. Well, then why do you do it?"

He looks at me weird for a second then replies, "So that I pass better. The same reason I always wear it."

"That makes sense but is it worth getting sick?"

"I usually start on the weekends so nobody really notices besides Sammy who makes me tomato soup and tea."

"Well, then that's what I'll do. I think Lucifer is still home. Hold on."

I pull out my phone and dial Lucifer's number.

"Cas?" he asks.

"Hey."

"Is everything okay?"

"What? Oh yeah. I'm good. I was just wondering if you were still home?"

"Yeah, I am. Why?"

"My friend, Dean, isn't feeling well and I didn't want to bring him over if no one was home. I don't have any more classes for the rest of the day, pro to doing a bunch of dual credit classes, so I was about to leave anyway."

"Oh. Um... Yeah. He can come over I guess. Shouldn't he go to his house though?"

"No, I need to make him tomato soup and tea."

"Oh, of course."

"Okay well... bye."

"Bye."

I turn back to Dean.

"Let's go."

He smiles slightly.

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Heyo! I'm back. Obviously. I'm in a pretty stable place right now. I've gotten kind of used to High School so I decided to start writing again.

Anyways... How have you guys been?

Have you guys noticed the huge size difference between the bolded * and the unbolded *? It's a huge difference. ********** Geez.

~Atlas🎭