Mayara Lovato (Demi Lovato f.f.)

- Chapter 15

P.O.V. Mayara

First day of the tour is today! I'm so excited, but most of all pretty nervous. We're going to England today. It's pretty early now though. It is like 08:00 am. My sister wanted everybody at her house at 08:00 am. Is she out of her mind? I'm a grown up teen. I need to rest and sleep. Ugh. Yes, I'm a moody morning person.

The door bell rings. 'MAY!': my best friend Lily screams. We run into each other arms like we haven't seen each other in ages. 'I'm so excited! you'll be amazing!': She says to me. Demi clears her throat. 'And you'll be amazing as well Dem.': She says a little funny. They both stick out their tongs.

Everybody is here. Done and ready to go. It's 09:00 am. Tonight at 09:00 pm is the first performance. So that means only 12 hours left.

<1 hour later>

We're in the 1st class in our airplane on our way to England. Lilliana fell asleep the first 5 minutes we were in here. I don't blame her, it's still early. I sit next to Lily and Demi. The rest of demi's family and friends are somewhere else in the 1st class.

'May?': Demi asks softly, not to wake up Lily. I nod my head and she continues. 'How are you?'. Well that's a good question. I'm not totally happy, but also not totally broken. 'I'm okay.': I answer. Demi looks me straight in my eyes. 'You're not really okay, I can see it.': She says. 'How'd you see it?': I ask with my head down. 'You were thinking and I know you longer than today. May it's okay not to be okay sometimes. Have you eaten this morning?' 'Honestly, I didn"t... Are you mad?': I ask shaky. 'No of course not! But you have to eat something. Let's get a starbucks okay?' 'yes... Do they  even have starbuks? We're on a plane remember?': I said back.

She walks away and in a few minutes she comes back with a starbucks for me and for her. 'Wow, they really do have starbucks.': I said half laughing. 'Yes of course they do. We're in first class and I paid for it.': she said with a smile on her face. All those calories.

HAHAHA you'll get fat!

Don't drink it!

You can just purge it later.

'May!': Demi snaps her fingers in front of my face. I look at her with pleading eyes and Demi knows what I mean. 'Mayara, you're NOT fat! You're beautiful! You can do this. I believe in you. And it's delicous.': she says and then takes a slurp out of her Starbucks. I slowly begin to drink it and finally the voices are quiet.

After my drink, demi fell asleep. Everybody is asleep now. Little did I know that Marissa was still awake. I make my way to the bathroom. Remember the last thing the voices told me to do?

Yeah, that's right. I'm going to purge it all out. I've worked so hard on getting thinner. And that worked for a while, because Demi was busy. I don't bother to lock the door, because everybody is asleep. I close the door behind me and stick 2 fingers in my throat.

I hear someone gasp while my starbucks is coming out of my mouth. 'MAY!': I hear Marissa say while pulling me up. I let some tears fall. 'MayMay, what are you doing? You're beautiful. Don't do this to yourself. I thought you stopped?': Marissa says gently stroking my back. 'I-I did, but then D-d-demi became so busy w-wtih e-everything and so i-i- had more s-space to do t-this.': I say letting tears fall. Marissa hugs me tightly.

'You're worth it. You are more than this.': She says. She grabs my hand and lead me to her seat. She pulls me on her lap and let me cry in her neck.

Maybe you crush her right now. Go off her fatty.

I crumble off her lap. She pulls me even more thightly. 'You're not gonna crush me. You're so light.' She says while locking eyes with mine. I snuggle into her and fall asleep.

I wake up by a very loud noise.

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Sorry not sorry for that end hehe.

It's been ages since i updated last.  This is a bit of a shitty chapter. I'm going to college now, so that's why I don't post so much anymore.

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