Nagisa X Rei (Free! FanFic)

Jealous Is Such an Ugly Word

Literally dragging my feet all the way home, I start to wonder why it made me mad that Nagisa went to Makoto. The fact is, I don't know. It really just irritated me, to the point where I wanted to pull out my own hair. Opening my door, I go straight to bed and fall on it. Why? Why? Why? Thinking and wondering to the point where everything in my head is just a jumbled up mess. "Really now Rei, what is wrong with you?" Bursting out in laughter, because I was just talking to myself again, I shake my head and start to replay the day in my head. The movie, then dinner and then the train ride home. Before Nagisa and I parted ways, he gave me a good night kiss, but it was as though I didn't really register it until now and as I move my fingers over my lips, the realization of this feeling hits me like a freight train. I am jealous. "Ugh jealousy, that is the most ugly of all emotions." I mumble to myself and decide to just go to sleep. I don't want to think about any emotions any more. As I slowly drift off to sleep, the last face in my mind is the smiling face of Nagisa.

The next day

I wake up groggily, sun pouring through my window and I just throw my arm over my eyes. Lack of sleep, that is what I am feeling today. I need to address my little problem, before school tomorrow, other wise everything is just going to irritate me. Wondering what to do, my phone starts to ring. As I stretch and take it off my bedside table, I reluctantly lift my arm and the name on the display screen makes me smile. "Hey Rei, you awake yet?" The chipper voice of Nagisa makes me smile even brighter. "I am now Nagi. Hey did you sleep well?" And he sighs so loudly it resonates through my every fiber. "Not so well, last night, you...you looked so sad and mad when you left me, that it made me toss and turn the whole night." Shame washes over me at the thought that I made him worry so much. "I am sorry Nagi, I don't know what came over me last night" I say and I feel my heartbeat increase. "You wanna go to the beach with me today?" He asks and it makes me smile. He worries about me and even after my odd behavior last nigh, he still wants to spend time with me. "Yes Nagi, I'd love to, but not the whole day. We still have to study. So how about you bring your books and stuff with you and then we can go from my house to the beach and then we study together afterwards." I know he has been working hard to get his grades up and I have been tutoring him relentlessly. I don't want him to fail and I want to keep him on the swim team and with me for as long as I can. "Okay, I'll see you in an hour. Bye Rei" and he's gone. He didn't even wait for me to say goodbye. It's okay, I'll see him in an hour and as I place my phone back on the table, I throw my arm over my eyes again and close them. I do believe I fell asleep again, because the moment I open my eyes Nagisa is lying next to me on top of the covers. "Hey sleepy head. Come on, I thought we were going to the beach." I groan at his cheerfulness while I am still asleep, but as I realize what's going on I bolt upright. "Nagisa, how long have you been here?" I question and he smiles. "Round about an half hour. Now get up. We have a date at the beach." He giggles and I fly out off bed to get ready. "You want some tea to wake you?" I nod and he's out the door. As soon as I finish dressing, he enters and hands me my tea. "You almost done?" He asks and I nod. "Nagi, before we go. I just need to tell you that...I'm so sorry for my behavior last night." I bow as I apologize and as I stand he smiles and shakes his head. "It's okay Rei. Now come on. Let's go." He grabs my hand and we are out the door and on our way to the beach.