Nagisa X Rei (Free! FanFic)

Pests Really Can Be The Best Sometimes

Dedicated to KawaiiNekomimi7
(This story is to say thank you for being my inspiration)

Ever since I joined the swim team, feelings inside me have taken root and it's all thanks to Nagisa. If it wasn't for his constant pestering and basically stalking, I don't think I would have ever even considered it. He has changed my life in so many ways with his lively and outgoing personality. I sometimes wonder how am I going to approach the topic of telling him how I feel. I need to find just the right time and do it in an elegant and beautiful way, but then again, I am so scared of being shut down. He's never given any hint (well except for the time he told me I was beautiful), but since then not as much. I think maybe I hurt his feelings when I asked Rin's help with my swimming, but I didn't want to burden him. Now I am lying on my bed, thinking of a way to tell Nagisa that I think I am falling in love with him. Maybe I should ask Haru, but I don't want them to look at me funny. Mako will be the logical next choice, Mako and Haru have this very special relationship, but I don't think they ever though about the same things as me at this point. I just need some more time to think. Think, think, think, that's all I ever do. Think and calculate and never take real action. Maybe I should just tell him and get it over with. What's the worst that can happen? No Rei, don't even think about that. Just stop thinking completely. For once in your life just do it. "Pick up the phone and call him." I mumble to myself out loud, but in the end I don't. I'll see him at school tomorrow, but it's not like we can talk at school or practice. It's days like today that I miss the little pest who kept stalking me. Maybe he'll come to visit today, he usually comes around two or three times a week, so I'll just wait and see if he shows. Study, yeah, I should study so that I can give my mind something else to do. "Okay Rei, get up and go study." That's it, this situation is driving me nuts. I am even talking to myself now. In the end I did nothing. I just wasted the rest of the day away waiting for Nagisa and staring at the ceiling, thinking of a way to tell Nagisa how I feel.

THE NEXT MORNING

Nagisa never showed up yesterday, but at least I will see him today. As the never ending thoughts of yesterday and the disappointment I felt roll through and around me, I feel sick. If I don't try and approach this today, I never will. So after brushing my teeth and getting ready, I leave for school. The moment I board the train and look into Nagisa's smiling face and eyes, all the worry of the previous day disappears. "Hey Rei, I saved you a seat" he says smiling so beautifully, it feels as though the sun has risen twice in my day. "Hi Nagisa. Thank you" I smile back and somehow I find myself sitting flush against his arm. "You okay?" He asks and I just nod. As he tells me about his day yesterday, I find myself thinking about everything we've been through and just smile. "So is it okay with you?" He asks and as I blink a few times, I realize I haven't been paying attention. "Sorry Nagisa. What did you ask?" He looks at me and for the first since I've come to know him, he looks deeply sad and disappointed at the same time and I feel my heart constrict. "Seriously, haven't you been paying attention to me at all? Never mind. You were probably busy running calculations again" he snaps and looks away. Well this just turned real awkward real fast. As I attempt to talk to him, I realize that I can't tell him the truth of what I was thinking and if I tell him that I have been running calculations as he thinks he'll probably get mad. "Sorry Nagisa. I wasn't paying attention. Can you repeat that please" I tell him, but he gives me a cold look and just turns away. "Never mind, if you didn't listen the first time, I m not going to repeat it." What do I do now? I wonder to myself, but for the first time, I have no answer. What I do know is that I have to fix this, before the day is over, but the question is: How?