CAMILA
Three weeks.
Three weeks ko ng hindi nakakasama si Lauren.
I guess we are both busy. Exams kasi.
Siya kailangan niyang panatilihin ang pagiging varsity niya, ako pagiging scholar.
But yung three weeks na yun ay inubos ko sa pag iisip kay Lauren.
Thinking maybe.. just maybe she likes me too.
I like Lauren. A lot. It's obvious, isn't it?
I spent those weeks smiling like an idiot. Hoping the princess really does like me.
But these past few days, nagdadalawang isip na ko.
Maybe she doesn't like me.
Hindi niya ko pinapansin. Noon basta magkakasalubong kami ay bibigyan niya ko ng nakakalokong ngiti. Now, she doesn't even bother to look at me.
Noong una kinukumbinsi ko ang sarili ko na baka busy lang siya. Stressed sa study.
But no. I can't fool myself.
There is something wrong with her.
Kailangan ko siyang makausap.
"I hate her," Ally muttered. Tinignan ko siya. Kumakain siya ng baon niyang sandwich habang nakatingin ng masama sa ibang direksyon ng cafeteria. Sinundan ko kung saan siya nakatingin. Sa table nila Lauren. Andun si Normani at Dinah.. and Shiela na nakapulupot ang braso kay Lauren.
I waited.
I waited Lauren to push Shiela away from her.
But I waited for nothing. Hinahayaan lang ni Lauren si Shiela na halikan siya sa pisngi at yumakap sakanya.
I bit my lower lip. It hurts. Hindi ko to dapat nararamdaman. May rules kami, pwede makipagdate sa iba. Plus, I dated Austin.
"Mila, are you ok?" Hinawakan ni Ally ang braso ko kaya napatingin ako sakanya.
"Are you crying?" gulat niyang sabi. Medyo malakas kaya maraming nakarinig. Maraming tumingin sa direksyon namin, isa na dun si Lauren.
Agad kong pinunasan ang luha ko gamit ang palad ko at nagkunwaring tumawa.
"Am I? I didn't notice," sabi ko habang inaayos ang gamit ko sa bag, naghahandang umalis sa cafeteria.
"What's wrong, Mila?" nag aalalang tanong ni Ally. Iniling ko ang ulo ko.
Kinuha ko ang bag ko at tumayo. "Please don't follow me. I'm Ok, Ally. Promise."
After I said that umalis na ko sa cafeteria.
I don't know where to go.
Naglakad lang ako hanggang sa makarating ako sa library.
Nginitian ako ni Mrs. Spenser, ang librarian namin. I gave her a weak smile.
Pumunta ako sa pinakalikod ng library, walang ganung estudyante ang nagpupunta dito dahil puro luma ang libro.
The moment I get there. I broke.
I was sobbing, nakaupo sa sahig. Nakatakip ang palad ko sa mukha ko, attempting to stop my eyes from crying.
I don't even understand why I'm crying. All I know is my chest hurts. The pain is too much to handle.
I can't understand myself. I can't understand anything. People used to call me smart, but I can't understand this thing I'm feeling. Fool.
I felt somebody's arms around my shoulder pulling me. It feels warm. The warmness is familiar. The scent. Alam ko kung sino tong nakayakap sakin. I didn't bother to look up.
Kahit wala akong maintindihan. Kahit gulong gulo na ang utak ko, isang yakap lang. Everything seems right. I'm only sure in one thing. I am inlove with this person hugging me. Lauren.
She rubs my back not saying anything. Ang tahimik. All I can hear is her heartbeat. It's fast, like mine. Faster, even.
"Lo," I croaked. Medyo kumalma na ang katawan ko.
"Hush," she said softly.
I slightly pushed her para maalis ang yakap niya sakin. Agad akong nagpunas ng mukha. I definitely look like a mess.
Nilabas niya ang panyo niya at siya ang nagpunas sa mukha ko.
"What's wrong?" said her husky voice. Her green eyes searching my soul.
I glared at her. "What's wrong with you?" I shot back.
She exhaled. Pinatong niya ang kamay niya sa kamay ko. "We should stop this," she said.
Kumunot ang noo ko. "Stop what?"
"This. Secret Affair thing. Para tayong nagtataksil sa asawa, pero wala naman tayong asawa," she chuckled. She's trying to lighten the mood. But it is not working.
I rolled my eyes. "I know something's up, Lauren."
Her smile vanished. She sighed. She looked so tired. Is she tired of me?
"Camila, I can't do this anymore."
"What do you mean?"
"I'm not your princess. I'm.. I'm.. just Lauren. I'm not good enough." Now she looked frustrated.
"You are not good enough? That's the lamest excuse you can come up with?" I sounded mad. I can't understand anything, mas lalo pa niyang pinapagulo.
"I am not good enough for you, Camila. Let's.. Let's stop this." Her voice became weaker at the last sentence. "Masasaktan lang kita."
Iniling ko ang ulo ko. I cupped her face. "Lauren, you are more than enough. I love--"
"Please, don't say it. Please," she whispered. Her eyes closed. Parang kinakatakutan niya ang sasabihin ko.
I bit my lower lip. My chest hurts again. I LOVE HER. She doesn't want to hear it. She doesn't want to accept it.
I exhaled. "Lauren."
She opened her eyes. Inalis niya ang kamay kong nasa mukha niya. Tumayo na siya.
"Let's stop this, ok?" she said.
"No." Tumayo na din ako.
"Camila."
"Ganun nalang yun?"
"Camila, please don't make this harder," she begged.
"Ikaw ang nagpapahirap, Lauren!"
She looked so tired. Pained. Her face so vulnerable.
"Just stay away from me," her raspy voice said.
"What?"
"Stay away from me." Her face turned cold. No expression. What the. How can she do that?
"Lauren you know I can't!"
"You have to."
"I won't do it," I said defiantly.
"I'll make you," now her voice is cold too.
"You can't!" I said stubbornly.
Nagtitigan kami ng masama. Hanggang sa una siyang umiwas.
"Watch me," she said coldly. Then she's gone.
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Sorry. Sorry sa wrong grammars.
Super busy kasi. Kaya I'll just leave you with this Eleventh Chapter (First Part), Ang pangit ata ng chapter na to.
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And I'm doing this story titled "The Ice Princess" It's CAMREN. Hindi na din po siya tagalog lahat. Medyo magpapakabayani ako na mag pupure english. Hehe :) Bear with me.
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