I flinch from the sound of the door opening.
"dan can you go see who it is, I need to fix the...door," Chris says as he shifts his gaze to the broken door and laughs nervously. "I'll help mate," Pj said as he popped his head into my room.
fuck.
I drag my feet along our carpeted hallway, the cold air conditioning making my hair on my arm stand up. I look at the door and see phil, and of course his hair is all fucked up, just like him.
"Hey dan!" Phil says enthusiastically.
god he sounds so fucking fake.
"what?" I ask trying not to make it obvious that I'm pissed off.
"I broke it off with cat!" Phil said, venom dripping from the word broke. I furrow my eyebrows, I can't believe he lied to mine. He's so happy he did it too. "good I could care fucking less," I said as I glared at him. "Something wrong?" Phil says as he tries to touch my shoulder. "please don't touch me," I hissed. "sorry," Phil said as he slowly took his hand away. "Mind telling me what's wrong?" Phil asks trying to seem innocent. I look at his eyes, they're covered by grey clouds, they're not a shiny iridescent blue anymore.
I wonder why
I keep staring, phil though darts his eyes around, clearly uncomfortable. "where's Chris?" Phil ass giving me a fake smile. I smile back but with an angry tone. "Fixing the bathroom door,"
"why is it broken?" Phil laughs. "you tell me," I laugh bitterly. Phil looks at me before going to Chris.
I learned my lesson.
love is just a drug.
it wears off.
and when it does.
you need it again.
so fucking bad.
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I'm at sitting on the floor eating the food Chris made on the coffee table. Phil's fake smiles and lies keep coming into my mind. tears start to form, I quickly rip them off with the palm of my hand.
he can go fuck off.
I check my phone, to find 3 notifications.
from phil.
phuck: dan
phuck: dannnn
phuck: dan r u awake lmao
what the fuck do you want?:
read: 5:34 am
phuck: what's wrong with u today?? like y are u so grouchy 🤔
youre a real fucking idiot:
read: 5:35 am
Phil I thought you broke it off with cat
read: 5:35 am
clearly you didn't :
read: 5:35 am
im only saying this because this isn't good for u
read: 5:36 am
phuck: how would you even know
I don't know phil, maybe you should leave your phone on a table not the bed ur having sex on:
read: 5:37 am
I shut my phone off and cry, I let stupid fucking tears drip down my face.
I feel my throat start to burn.
countless petals are gushing out of me, and countless tears are falling off of me.
i wish i could just be dead.
i wish i could be gone from this world.
i'll just go choke on my stupid fucking flowers.
A/N: |hey it's day! sorry for like not updating for so long??? school man it's fking wrecking me up 😩👊, but I'll update every weekend! and maybe Kay and Ava but like they're idfk lazy 😤😤 |
