Warning: not really a rant, but it's pretty long, so... yeah. Don't read if you aren't interested.
There was this one boy on Wattpad named Eren. I forgot his username, but if only I remembered it, I would write down on my arm everyday like a tattoo because he was just that important to me.
He was a teenager (like 2 or 3 years older than me, I think?) so he's probably either 15 or 16 right now. I think he's 16.
Anyways, he was my first best friend on Wattpad and I was surprised by how nice he was. Usually when I meet teenage boys irl or, like, over social media, they're always moody or just plain r 0 0 d. Eren, however, was different. He gave off a kind impression and we hit it off right away.
We were both pretty shy towards each other (which is understandable). He was one of those normal teens who liked to have pets and exercise etc. He was also his school's counselor, which I thought was super cool. At first, he would tell me how much he was glad to have his stress ball. I was sort of taken aback and thought he had some sort of serious anger issues (that's just how I thought at that time btw) or something, but he was actually just a very anxious person. He also dealt with depression but it was hard to notice since he was social.
Along with Eren, I earned two other friends: Xander and Eden (I think that's her name? She never really mentions her name but she did it once on SC and I think it was Eden? Anyways...)
Those three people were about the same age, but Xander and Eden were a year younger than Eren. The four of us would text everyday and we never forgot to ask each other how our day went even if we were having a bad day. It felt like family when I was talking to them.
I don't remember exactly, because I never kept track, but I think in total we were all friends for about 1 1/2 years or so (idk???). Somewhere in between that, we found out Xander had cancer. I forgot what kind but it was pretty serious. Eren, Xander, Eden, and I would still talk, though, just like the first time we met.
It was all pretty fun (I even developed a crush on Eren but not anymore hush) and I learned a lot about them throughout the months. For ex:
Xander was half Korean but didn't like his Korean name because he thought it was weird. He spoke Korean fluently and really liked cute things (especially his pink chopsticks). He was gay and dated a person online (it didn't end well. Smh, it was that other person's fault for being a fucking bitch). He also liked to bake and drink tea during his free time. Xander was also very, very pretty+handsome with eyeliner on. Even without eyeliner, though, he was gorgeous. His older brother was also hella attractive. He could be a model 😂😂😂.
Eden was like my older sister. She's super pretty too. She was into the same music as Eren (rock) and she's a very hard-working older sister. Even though she had a shitty ass phone, she still managed to keep in contact with me.
Eren loved Japanese punk rock music and liked BTS a little bit. He would exercise and talk to me about random shit like his dog or his school. He even talks to me about his prom plans and his irl crush. Along with that, he sketches really well, both on paper and the computer. I wouldn't have found out about Brandon Rogers without him 😂😂 I feel sad when I watch Brandon Rogers because he reminds me of Eren.
Anyways, a few more months passed and some shit went down: like Xander's boyfriend issues and Eren's irl problems. I always talked to them about it and comforted them the best I could 😂😂. A few more months and Xander passed away because of his cancer. His cancer spread fast because he was often stressed out. I always felt regretful when I lookee back because I should have spoken to him more. I couldn't really talk, though, since I had school and he wasn't active on Wattpad that much, so I guess we didn't have a choice but to not talk? Eren also deleted his account a few days after that because he was starting to get super busy with high school. I was really sad seeing that one of my friends just died and the other one wouldn't be able to talk to me ever again. Sometimes I hope that when I'm older I'll unexpectedly bump into him, or something. The only person that I still keep in touch with is Eden. We don't talk a lot, but sometimes I chat with her on Snapchat. Unfortunately, I can't speak with her for three months because my grandma brought her tablet with her to the Philippines and that was where I had Snapchat.
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So.... Idk where I was going with this but I guess I just wanted to talk about the people I missed.
😤😧. Welp, if anyone relates then comment below or something. (Idk how to end this chapter 😂😂😂)
