Not over you

Chapter 9

Aria's POV

Today I'm finally going to talk to my parents. I'm really nervous about that. I barely slept tonight, just worrying about their reactions. I was tossing and turning all night and woke up lots of times. At 6:30AM I gave up and got up. I talked with my parents during the last 2 years, and although they always seemed happy and relieved to hear my voice and know that I was ok, part of me always wondered if there was a part of them that hated me for running away 4 years ago.

After I took a shower I drank some coffee and went to the living room. I checked my emails and then started reading a book while I waited for the girls to wake up. I chose to read To Kill A Mockingbird, which turned out a horrible idea, as it only brought back memories of Ezra and I. After a few minutes I realized I had stopped reading and was just thinking about him and how we ended up apart and broken... or at least I did.

The girls are going to spend the day with Spencer. It took me a while to get them to, because they wanted to go try the pool, but after promising we would spend a day in the pool as soon as I talked with everyone I had to, which hopefully will happen in 3/4 days max, they accepted it. But they are amazing and sweet and they understood I had some things to sort out so they agreed with me.

After the twins woke up I dressed them and we had breakfast. Now we're watching TV while waiting for Spencer to pick them. I was answering a few emails on my laptop when I hear Olivia call me.

"Momma?" I look at her and notice that she's acting weird.

"Yes baby? Is everything ok?" I ask. She looks at Daisy as if asking permission for something and she nods.

"I wanted to ask you something..."

"Yeah? Of course. What is it?" I say placing the laptop on the coffee table and looking at them.

"Why..." she looked at Daisy. "Why isn't daddy here with us?" she asks, and for a few seconds my heart stops. I knew they would want to know but I never expected it to happen so soon.

"Is it our fault? Didn't he like us?" Daisy asks, which breaks my heart. They think he left because he didn't like them... how did I let this happen?

"NO! Of course not!" I immediately say. "Never think that again, do you listen to me? Never!" they nod.

"But then why?" Olivia asks.

"It had nothing to do with any of you... he just didn't love me anymore..." I say sadly.

"How is that possible mommy? You're the prettiest and best woman in the whole world!" Daisy says and Olivia nods. Their words make me wanna cry but I can't in front of them, so I just hug them and rub their backs.

"I love you both so much! Thank you for being in my life." I say.

"I hate him!" Daisy suddenly says angrily.

"Who?" I ask confused.

"Daddy!" they both say at the same time.

"No. Don't say that, please. You know it's not true."

"But it is mom!" Daisy says.

"Yeah! How could he not love you? If he doesn't love you I don't like him!" Olivia says and Daisy nods.

"You can't hate him... believe me I tried to but I couldn't and still can't." I chuckle.

"Really?" they asks.

"Yeah..." I say.

"Can you tell us more about him?"

"Yes..." I don't really wanna talk about him, but they deserve to know about their daddy and I know some day I'll have to. "What do you want to know?"