Note To My Last

Missing Her

M's ....

I was a little bit hesitant to come closer to her, I was so scared that she might just run away from me, that she just don't want to see me, I just....

But no, this is now or never. I was like a broken glass that needs to be fixed by her. I am such a coward. I'm totally a jerk.

"Y..."

No words can explain how I feel when I finally call her name again. I don't know how I can put this feeling into words..

It was actually a surprise, I keep on convincing her two best friends to please bear with me, this is my last chance. I know how much I hurt her.
But God knows how much I love her.

Marcus ?

God ! She's the only girl I wanted to marry, she's the only girl I wanted to be with for the rest of my life.

I can see the pain inside of her. Diko na kayang makita syang nasasaktan. Gustong gusto ko na syang yakapin :(((((

"Y, let's go"

"Y...."

She stands still. Gago ko ! Shit. Ako ang dahilan ng lahat ng to. Naiintindihan ko kung bakit ganto sakin ang dalawa nyang best friend. I will also understand if any moment someone will gonna punch me in death. I know how much I hurt her. And for that, I was ready for anything.

I was about to come closer to her, to kneel down, to ask for forgiveness, but Veera dragged her away from me.

Nakikita nang dalawang mata ko ang lungkot at sakit na nararamadaman nya. I can't take it but I have to. It's all my fault. I should have explained everything to her. I have to suffer again, but now from another kind of illness.

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Veera's Pov.

"Oh Y gising ka na pala" bungad ko sa kanya. I'm trying to pretend that everything happened a while ago is just a nightmare.

Ganun din si Trixie, kunwari sobrang saya namin kasi nga duh nakagraduate na kami. Yuhooooo !!!

"Oh mga Mars san na tayo pupunta ngayon ? Kailangan nating magcelebrateeeee !!! " Trixie's voice was full of happiness and excitement, still trying to make it real.

"What happened?" hinang hina nyang tanong.

"Huh ? Bakit ka ba malungkot ?? Graduate na tayooo dibaaa ! Let's celebrate 🎉 " as Trixie handed her a glass of champagne.

Both of us still trying to give our best, pretending that she already forgot what happened a while ago.

She handed the champagne, so she might buy our style.

Before madalas syang nawawalan ng malay, kapag sobrang nattense or kapag sobrang nagagalit. Madalas nagigising sya na umiiyak o natutulala. That was years ago. Ayoko magkwento huhu naiiyak ako sa sakit na pinagdaanan nya nun. Halos maging zombie sya sa sobrang depressed. Hays wag na lang nating balikan yun. Anyways, napapaisip pa din ako kung bakit bigla na namang bumalik ang gagong yun. Matapos ang lahat ng ginawa nya kay Y ? What the hell.