kitten // Jisol

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Joshua POV

The walk back to the dorm was fun with Hansol. He kept grabbing my hand and swinging our arms back and forth as we talked about our dreams for the future. "What do you want to be in the future Joshie?" He asked. "Well, I would still want to be in Seventeen but I guess I would work in a library or something." He nods. We approach the dorm, and before we open the door, he kisses me once more. I smile. "You're so nice to me Hansollie." I say happily, kissing him back,"I hope we can spend another day out together soon." I say, before finally opening the door to find Junhui on the sofa in exactly the same position I last saw him before we left. 

"I found your bloody razor." He says, staring straight at me as he hands me my old blood-stained razor that I remember tossing in the trash can. I feel Hansol's demeanor change instantly, "So is this why you're always wearing long sleeves?" He asks angrily, I look down at my feet. I know I've been caught now. "Show me your arms." I shook my head furiously, pulling my sleeves over my hands, tears stinging at my eyes. I want to run, I feel so screwed, especially because I never wanted him to know. I was actually going to stop when we first got together.

He grabs my wrist and yanks my sleeve up. I try to pull away but he's much stronger than me. Seeing the anger intensify on his face after seeing all the cuts makes something inside me snap with fear. I slip my wrist through his grip and run out of the room as fast as my legs can carry me to wherever the hell I was going to go. At this point, I don't care where I end up, just as long as it's as far from the dorm and Hansol as possible. 

I end up on an empty park bench, gazing as the sun sets behind the sea. I watch the waves and hug my knees to my chest. My legs ache much more than they've ever ached, even at dance practice.  

I don't want to go back now, not after Hansol finding out my secret. I thought as I approached the swing set. Junhui could tell everyone else for all I cared, but by the time they found out, I would be long gone. 

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Hansol POV

Oh my goodness, I've messed up so badly.

I hurt my kitten.

I grip the razor tightly in my hands until it cracks and breaks. I never thought this would ever happen, I never even thought he would do this to himself. He was always so nice to everyone and smiled a lot. 

I need to fix this. I have to apologise to my kitten.

As I step out of the dorm I realise that I have no idea where he went. But knowing Joshua, he probably turned left, towards the seaside park. I knew that it was going to be far, but it's for Joshua. 

I should catch up with him pretty soon, or else he might do something crazy, or I may end up losing him eventually. And for the first time in the longest time ever, I felt tears in my eyes. I furiously wiped them away, trying to run faster.  

My left leg throbs from a past knee injury, but I ignore it because I know I'm almost there. 

And I see him, swinging back and forth on his favourite swing set, throwing his head back as the wind gushed against his body. 

I watched him for a while, relieved that he was fine, at least physically. 

Suddenly he sees me. 

And he gets so surprised that he lets go of the chains. 

I start to run again in vain attempts to catch him before he hits the concrete below. 

"NO!" I yell because I was much too late, my heart lurched as his small body collapses, scraping against the ground. "NO! JOSHUA!" I grab for him, turning him over. Most of his front is badly scraped, but he had protected part of his face with his arm, so only his forehead was damaged. "N-No... Joshua....I-I'm so so s-sorry...I-I love you!" I sob, "I'll call an ambulance." 

He smiles, looking up at me with only one eye because the other had blood running over it. "It's ok Hansollie, none of it was your fault anyway." 

"No NO NO! JOSHUA! You have to stop blaming yourself for everything!" I scream, "Nothing that happened to you was your fault, it was never your fault that you would feel like shit so much to the point you cut yourself, it was never your fault that Jun found the razor and it was never your fault that you're bleeding right now!"  I grab his face and kiss him firmly right on the mouth, tasting blood and feeling our tears mixing together. "Please, I love you. Don't do such things again, you can just talk to me." I pull him towards me into a hug, not caring if his blood ended up staining my brand-new shirt. 

I dial 119 and wait for the Emergency Ambulance to come. 

I hold his hand as he gets carried into the back on a stretcher. 

He tells the nurses and doctors that he was on the swing and fell off, which was what happened. But instead of saying he came here because he was sad, he told them that we were on a date and fell off while I went to the bathroom. 

I watch as they disinfect his body, eyes going over every single cut that was on his body. The sight almost made me cry again. They were going to have to keep him in for a few nights until the wounds heal. 

I did all the arguing necessary until I convinced them to let me stay the night with him, even if it took over two hours and they threatened to drag me out. 

I told the members that we were at the hospital and that I would be back with Joshua after a few days.  

I pulled our beds together, and in the darkness of the hospital room, we shared a deep and loving kiss. 

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Hey guys I'm @taco1cat 's co-writer 

So as you guys know, I wrote the chapter before this one and I might be writing a whole lot more of the chapters after this. 

So basically that was what happened and I guess I'll be writing a whole lot more on her account now.

Anyways, thanks for reading.

(And if you want, you can check out my book 'It was only supposed to be a dare' if you are into mature scenes( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) and cute couples [and a blushy Josh) 

-DerpyAsian17