Miracle

Chapter 8

Lucien's POV:
WARNING ⚠️!! ABUSE AND SELF HARM
If you are uncomfortable it is possible to skip this chapter and everything will still make sense.
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I hopped on my bike and rode home, parking in the garage I checked the door finding it was unlocked already. Memories flooded my vision of my biological father. Not only did he cheat on my mother. But he would hurt her and myself.

"Daddy?" I called through the house giggling as I tried to find daddy

"Over here" he called from his hiding place and I rushed over to his hiding spot and hugged him. He pulled me into his hiding spot and kisses my lips he traced his hands to my shorts line and I gasped slapping daddy's hand away.

"It'll be our little secret Lucien"

I looked around the walls of the house as I try to shake off the memories and fall to the floor beside my bike.

"W..what are you doing dad?" I asked in a scared voice, trembling in fear. Before I knew what was happening dad had unzipped his trousers, letting himself spring up.

"Lucien, I want you to suck it like a lolly pop, and I'll buy you a toy" he said coaxing me to give him head.

I stopped sucking and I felt something collide with my face and stinging followed, it occurred to me he had slapped me. I ran out from him to my room to play with my trucks crying. I heard yelling downstairs and went to the top of he stairs to see dad pressing mummy against the wall. SHe was crying and screaming in pain. He slapped her and I cried my self to sleep.

The issues with my father continued until I was 8 years old when mum got a divorce because he also cheated on her with multiple people. When I was about ten I came to realise what he had done to my mother and I. And that haunts us. I weakly make my way to my room and fall onto my bed looking at a family photo of my mother and I. I was never strong enough to protect her or help her. I wasn't able to protect myself. I tried to block out all the bad thoughts and times he hurt me. I light a cigarette and pressed the bud against my waist and embraced the feeling and did this a few times before I but the buds in the ash tray and opened up a window.

I stared of into space as they kept coming to me like a avalanche.

"Dad stop! Your hurting her! " I yelled at him as I tried to push him of mum as he raped her, he withdrew and went on to me next when he was done  he grabbed a beer bottle and threw it at my leg the glass cutting my skin.

"I'll be ok darling" My mother said sadly tears rolling down her pale face.

I nodded slowly as I wobbled back to my room in pain as I failed again to help her.

I got up and took my pocket knife out of my drawers and slashed my leg mercifully and blood trailed down my thighs and all could be seen was red.

As I got up to take a shower I let the burning feeling comfort me then put on some pj bottoms and headed down make some food to eat for dinner, I made a salad and ate it watching Despicable Me and headed off to bed and let sleep take me over.