Polar (Erejean)

Meanings

My mind felt groggy as I slowly woke up, the world around me eventually coming into focus. I looked down, mindlessly running my thumb over the arm that was wrapped loosely around my waist - my very naked waist...

My eyes widened a little, my hand freezing in its spot as the events of the night before caught up with me.

"Holy shit," he breathed, the words coming out of my mouth without me even meaning them to. I turned a little to glance back at Jean, a little relieved to find him still completely asleep beside me.

Doing my best not to wake him, I carefully moved out of his hold and sat up a little, wincing a little at the slight pain in my lower back. I looked down at him for awhile, my mind filled only with memories from the night before. The whole event seemed like it had come out of nowhere, and I couldn't even start to think about what was running through Jean's head when he made that first move.

I gave a short sigh, looking off to the side before reaching down to Jean's nightstand and grabbing his - well, my - phone. My eyes widened when I saw the time, a wave of panic running through me as I hopped off the bed and started searching around for some clothes.

I ended up just shoving on the clothes I had worn to dinner last night - minus the tie and blazer. Quickly grabbing my bag, I made my way out of Jean's house, typing out Armin's number on my phone as I went.

Usually, I wouldn't be too worried about being late or missing hours, but given that I had already missed school the day before and I was less than ten minutes away from being late to yet another one of Mr Ackerman's lessons, I thought it would be best not to push my luck. So, I gave Armin a quick ring, asking him to come pick me up from Shinganshina Estate.

He had a lot of questions for me when he arrived, but I just told him that I'd tell him everything after our lesson with Ackerman. He reluctantly agreed, clearly eager for answers but deciding not to waste time pushing for them.

We arrived pretty much just in time, and I faked a smile when the teacher made a comment about me actually showing up. Don't get me wrong, he's a great teacher, but, fuck, do I hate him a lot of the time.

As soon as the bell rang and I was out of the door, Armin was right by my side again, pressing me for information. Mikasa joined just as quick, watching the both of us from the other side of me. I just rolled my eyes at their nagging, though, really, I was quite eager to talk to them.

"Don't either of you have lessons to go to?"

Armin shrugged. "Bio was canceled."

"And this is a lot more interesting than revision," Mikasa chimed in, and I just had to sigh in defeat.

"Okay, okay," I said, heading outside and sitting down on one of the benches. "I stayed over at Jean's the other night..."

I spent awhile explaining the past couple of days, going in order of the events that happened. Their expressions turned sympathetic when I brought up my dad, and I couldn't help but think about how bad it made me feel compared to how Jean reacted. I always felt like Armin and Mikasa just pitied me whenever anything bad happened, and I hated that.

"...And then we fucked."

"Oh my God."

"Gross," Mikasa mumbled, wrinkling her nose a little.

I rolled my eyes, grinning a little. "Maybe, but it was damn good, though."

"No thanks, I don't need to be hearing all the details," she said, waving me off.

"So... Was it just sex then?" Armin asked.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I guess. It just kind of happened but we haven't exactly had a chance to talk about-"