Letters & Rants

Dear ___, #1

Dear ___,
       Go fucking die in a hole. I hate you so much. Do me a favor and sit on a cactus. You are the most annoying thing. The problem is you aren't a person for me to kick you in the face. Yet you can still taunt me like a bully can.
       You're the biggest problem in my life. I can do something about you but you're too much. You overpower me with your stopping of time and the horrible screeching. Let's not forget the emptiness you leave after you pounce on me. The feeling of me burning up when it can be snowing. The feeling of my chest getting tied up. The panic when I can't remember how to breathe. Sometimes the tears that I can't stop no matter how hard I wipe and rub my eyes.
       Maybe I could learn to control you but you live in my mind. You control me. You take over my life. When I'm grocery shopping, on my way to school or simply sitting on my bed reading. You are always there to make sure I don't feel too steady about life. You're like a stalker with magical powers. You have the power to stop me from functioning properly. I hate that you can appear at random moments.
       People have tried to help. It was no use though. You always come back to me. You always find a way to wrap yourself around my neck until I can't breathe. Their help is no use. The things they tried to help me with drove me crazy. I was attached because I felt like you'd go away. You never go away though. You are always there.
       Go jump off a sky scraper and leave my everyday life alone.

  Love,
     Gabbie

Jk please fucking die

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