My lover(sequel to My Host; namjin)

Hoseok

Everyone one looks so happy and domestic around me it's sickening. I'm so glad Tae isn't like that. I'm glad he gave me a chance when Namjoon turned him down. Everything seemed to work out great, Jimin with Yoongi, Namjoon with Jin, and Kookie with Jackson.
  Everyone is happy with our arrangements but with the two main couples of our group I wonder if marriage will ever be in my future...I don't exactly hate the idea it's just...Tae doesn't strike me as the monogamous type forever which is why I hold back my own feelings and let him take others home.
  He always includes me in his sexual endeavors but...I really just want him. I won't tie him down, though, because he's much too adventurous for that. And I refuse to lose him from such a stupid little act. It means so much to Namjoon and Jin and now Jimin and Yoongi but that life is not for us. At least, I don't think it is...
  I remember when Yoongi proposed to Jimin. I felt...betrayed in some way. Yoongi was my pillar to make fun of love and such but then he had to go and make himself domesticated with Jimin and left me behind. It's not really his fault, though. He deserves happiness I'm just being bitter, I guess.
       Sighing, I return to working out the finishing touches in my latest choreography. I stop about thirty minutes later to drink some water only to freeze when I see Taehyung leaning against the door watching me.

       "Hoseokie...you're so sexy.." he growls as he stalks over to me smelling like sex and alcohol. Pain lances my chest as I look at him in disappointment. He seems drunk.
       "Did you meet with someone without me?" I ask, ignoring his smirk.
       "Well you were busy baby. Are you mad?" He asks as his fingers snake under my shirt. I step back and remove his hands. He cheated on me...
       "I thought we had a deal? You'd only be with others if I'm there." I say, avoiding his searching gaze. He huffs in annoyance and pushes me against the nearest wall. I grunt in pain as his lips attack my neck. Those lips that have touched others...I bite my lip and try to ignore the hurt inside.
      This is who he is. I need to get over it before I end up alone again. I'm so tired of being alone. I close my eyes as he slides his cold hands over my sweaty body. He licks my collarbone and I have to turn my head away from his smell. He smells like cologne...not his. I know his scent and his expensive Gucci cologne and this is not it.
      He pulls back and that same smirk lingers on his mouth. "You know I only care for you Hoseokie. Don't be upset. I promise next time I'll include you. I just needed it too bad and you weren't there.." he tries to explain but it only hurts me more. Next time.
      I put on a forced smile of my own and push him away. "It's fine, Tae. Actually, I'm thinking of going out myself. Maybe finding someone to take home. Maybe we should-"
       "Don't even think about it!" He cuts me off and slams his lips again mine. My eyes widen in surprise by the anger in his eyes.
      "Wh-"
      "You're mine, Hoseok. No one can touch you without my permission. I own you and no one else!" He growls against my mouth as I go slack, dumbfounded. Is he fucking kidding me? He can go out and fuck whoever but it's not ok for me? Oh hell no!
       "No. You don't own me!" I push him off and glare at him, wiping my mouth clean. "If you want to go fuck other people fine but don't think I'm going to be the fucking obedient little housewife waiting for you at home! I have every right to go out and enjoy life as well as you can." I go to grab my bag but before I can turn around Tae slams me down on the floor.
      I stare up at him in shock as he falls on top of me and pins me down, fingers biting into my wrists painfully. I've never seen him like this before. Violent. Angry. Usually when he's drunk he just gets horny and irritable...never abusive.
"T-Tae stop it! You're hurting me.." I bite out as he forces his tongue into my unwilling mouth. I don't know what's gotten into him but I don't like it. He tightens his grip on me.
"Have you fucked anyone else besides our threesomes? Answer me?" He demands as he bites my neck roughly. I choke and shake my head hesitantly.
"Keep it that way." He seems to calm down and caresses my face while his other hand gropes me through my pants. "I'm sorry I got so angry baby. I've just had a rough night and wanted to come back and make love with you." He sighs as I look away. Liar.
"Whatever. Let me up." I say sternly but he doesn't budge.
"Not until you forgive me and give me what I want." He whispers in my ear. Tears sting my eyes but I refuse to let them fall and him to see the pain he's causing me.
"Didn't you get enough tonight? You don't need me and frankly I'm not in the mood." I huff and try to free myself from his unbreakable hold.
"Oh, baby, I'll never get enough to not want you too. Just get over it already, ok?" He pets my hair and cheek while I ignore his pleading. "Hoseok. Kiss me." He demands. He never calls me by my name. He always uses a nickname like Hobi or Hoseokie or baby. I don't like his tone of voice saying my actual name. It puts me on edge.
And rightly so as his hand comes down and smacks my cheek. I flinch and gasp as he pushes himself off me and climbs clumsily to his feet. I stay immobile and just clutch my cheek while he grabs my bag and goes through it. I don't understand what he's doing until he finds my cell phone and begins to go through it.
He grunts angrily as he reads my contact list and I sit up slowly wondering how this will play out. I don't really talk to anyone but the guys I live with so I have no idea why he's mad.
He throws the phone at my feet. "You're cheating on me with Jungkook, aren't you? I know it! You're such a fucking slut!" He growls. Is he kidding me with this? Look who the fuck is talking!
"I've only ever been with him that one time and it was only because you insisted!" I tell angrily. I don't deserve this shit and I'm tired of him acting like an intolerable little dick.
He forced that threesome on me and I didn't like it. Kookie could tell I didn't want to but didn't stop Tae from encouraging it during one of his Hosting sessions. He bought Kookie for the night without my knowledge and I didn't have a choice in the matter. He told me if I loved him I'd do it. So I did it.
He laughs but there's no humor. "I bet you see him behind my back. Is that who you wanted to see tonight without me? Huh?" He screams making me flinch. His cold eyes glare down at me. "Take off your pants." He demands harshly. My heart pounds in apprehension and slight fear. I don't know how to handle this Taehyung.
"N-no." I stutter uncomfortably. I hate this. Maybe I should break up with him but..I love him. God, I'm stupid and I know it but I love him so much.
"If you don't do it then I will and you won't like it baby. Now be a good boy and do it." He says calmly as he waits for me to follow his words. I wish Namjoon or Yoongi would appear but they left the studio only a couple hours ago. I'm alone and have no one to save me from this psycho before me. This isn't my boyfriend. Taehyung can be so loving when he wants and usually showers me with gifts and love but after he starts clubbing and drinking he changes.
I've never seen him this bad but I really shouldn't be that surprised. Maybe he's on something more that just alcohol. It would make more sense and he's just the type that would take drugs if the mood strikes.
"Tae please don't be like this. I just want to go home and sleep and I'm sure you would like to take a shower and sleep as well.." I try to say but he just smirks and makes his way over to me. I step back but he grabs my arm.
"Hoseokie. You can go home and sleep soon, ok? I'm sure you're just dying to see Kookie, hm?" He glares snd I gasp as his nails dig into my skin.
"It's not like-"
"Shut up! Just do what I fucking tell you, ok?" He says as he forces my pants down to my knees. I swallow hard when he spins me around and pushes me down face first on the table beside the wall. He smacks my ass making me wince before sliding a finger inside me. I grunt in pain as he roughly stretches me before impatiently undoing his own pants and thrusting inside.
"Wait-" I groan but it's too late. I was going to beg him to use a condom since I don't know where he's been but he'd probably still do it without one anyway. He doesn't care about my safety. He pounds into me hard and I close my eyes just tying to breath through it until he's satisfied. Hopefully he won't last long and I can go home and shower the filth away.
How did I end up like this? Everyone else around me is so happy and here I am letting myself be abused just because I don't want to be alone. I am alone. Tae doesn't love me and will always be with others. I honestly don't understand why he doesn't just break up with me. Does he just like playing head games with me?
Because he thinks he can own me like he claimed? Am I that useless? Tears burn my eyes as he finally groans loudly above me and cums deep inside me. He releases me and fixes his pants completely ignoring the fact that I never even got hard or came. I don't care, I just want him to leave. He yawns loudly before kissing me sloppily. I let him do it so he'll hurry and go.
He meets my eyes and smiles. "I love you Hoseokie, you know that right? You're mine forever.." he sighs and I nod once and watch silently as he leaves the studio telling me he'll be back home later. I let the tears fall as I collect myself before grabbing my bag and phone and heading home.
When I enter the house I see everyone but Jin eating dinner. I force a big smile and sit down to eat, ignoring the pain in my ass and the wetness on my thighs and the numbness growing in my chest.