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Fears with Four

Yesterday the movie was awesome! Even though i watched the movie already about 7 times.
I ate too much though because i ended up in the nurses office around 1:30 in the morning and staying there 'till 3:20 am.

Today me and Lyn both have Fears with Four. I get to meet Tobias. I remember being excited about it but now i realize that was only little excitement compared to this kind.

Most people who are'nt in fandoms say they're just fiction characters but they are real. And we get to meet ALL of them! And that proves they're real!

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I see him and my heart thumps in my chest, threatening to burst.
He's standing RIGHT in front of me. Talking to me.
"Hello?" he asks.
I snap from my thoughts, look down and up to him again.
"I'm sorry what was the question?" People giggle at that.
"What are you most afraid of?" he asks.
"Oh-um..." I look around, not that that would give me any clue to what im afrain of but i blurt out random stuff I'm afraid of anyway.
"Spiders, heights, that's all I'm REALLY afraid of," i say quickly. Everyone laughs and i look back at the ground, ashamed.

"No one should feel shame, for what they are afraid for. You simply cannot change the fact that you are afraid of it," he reads my mind.

He turns to the next girl, one of the pretty ones I saw on Saturday in the pool.

"What's your name?" he asks.
"Kenna." she replies.
"Kenna," he starts. She almost looks as if she melts, she breaks into a smile and slouches a bit more.
"What are you afraid of? You were one of the ones laughing, are your fears 'non scarier' or whatever compared to.." he seems like he shivers, "heights. What are you afraid of?
Her smile immediately disappears and she looks at the floor.
She mumbles something no one can make out.
"What was that?" Four asks.
She looks at the ceiling and rolls her eyes and says, "flies, rabbits ghosts and cactus's." 
Everyone bursts out laughing and even Four smiles.
"Cacti." he replies.
He turns around and stiffles a laugh and Kenna looks as if she's about to cry.

He walks to the front of the room and starts talking about what we're going to be doing for the term.

I look at the walls and the floor, noticing they're both grey and match eachothers color perfectly. Does the floor look like the wall or does the wall look like the floor?

"Every class we will be-"
He gets cut off by Tris as she walks in the room. Everyone gasps and i just have a little fangirl moment in the middle of the room. She starts to the front of the room and theres just me in the middle of the room. Freaking out. But the second I look up, she winks at me. ME. Out of all the other people beside me, in front of me and behind me, she looks at me, and closes one eye, and reopens it. Her winking at me makes me fangirl even more and you couldnt tell if i was fangirling or having a seizure.

She whispers something to him and he nods. She smiles her big white smile, he smiles his even BIGGER white smile and she leaves, turning as shes about to leave my eyesight, she winks at me again, and i have my seizure again.

Four looks at me and smiles. I dont know what to do but try to not fangirl.
I try my hardest not to smile but theres still this stupid looking grin on my face and my whole face must be squished together, trying not to smile while Tobias looks at me. I must look so retarted because Four starts laughing at me and everyone turns my way and looks at me and i just put my arms over my head on my desk.

And I still don't stop smiling.

When I look up everyone isn't looking at me any more except Four, who pretends to read from his papers on his desk but looks up from them and looks at me. Why me. I have this messed up face right now and he wont stop staring at me. GO AWAY IM UGLY! I just want to yell out. Barely before i finish my thought, Four reads my mind again and says,
"You're beautiful, not ugly."
That turns heads, but nit my way, his way. Their eager faces searching for an explanation about the off-handed comment. But he doesn't say anything.

Everyone begins to read. I just fangirl.
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Four dismisses all of us but I stay behind, picking uo my books that were "accidently", knocked off my desk.

I catch the red haired gril from the pool on Saturday, the one that cried, confidently walking up to Four as he nods a "hello" to her.

"Im Holly. And i KNOW I'm beautiful," she says 'matter of factly'. She smiles, whips her red hair in his face and leaves, leaving him stunned and surprised. He catches me looking at him and smiles. I nervously look away and leave.
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Lyn and I go to the restaraunt that now has a name, The Light, which seems weird because its more dark than light.
I notice things i havnt noticed before when we first got our tour of this place yesterday, theres waterfalls on the walls, a hot tub (weird), and the tables vary in sizes and shapes. Did they get the furniture from the same store?
I glance at a little living-room-like space and we go to sit there.

Lyn sits on the end of the couch, i sit beside her. Its a four person couch so we can take up all the space.

Were sitting talking about what we're going to do tomorrow when out of nowhere, Tris is beside me, sitting beside me, breathing beside me, touching me, near me, living beside me.

"Hiya," she says casually, so i try to act normal too.
"Hey howsa goin?" i ask nervous.
"Oh good how 'bout you, Kate?"
That sold me. now i was fangirling and trying to breathe and she smiled and laughed.

"Its okay im just a normal human being who just so happens wants to be your friend."
She knows my name. she wants to be my friend.
I look at Lyn and she looks at me with jealousy, not sure which kind, its either the, you-were-my-friend-first-and-youll-STAY-my-friend jealousy or the, LUCKY-you-get-to-be-friends-with-Tris, jealousy.
I hope its the second one.
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SORRY ITS SHORT! Next one i do will hopefully be really long so stick around and vote :3