Secret Love

Chapter Three

-Emily’s POV-

I walk into Math class and I see Nick. Nick is talking to the teacher to see if he’s in the correct classroom or even in the correct part of the school. I see him and he doesn’t see me. I take my seat in the back of the classroom. Most of my classes I sit in the back because I can’t bare to be in the front of the room because then people will see me and it will go from there. Nick turns walks to the seat the teacher told him to. He turns around and he saw me. He doesn’t do anything. No hello, no are you okay. He looks and then turns back acting like he never saw me in the first place. I decide to actually pay attention in class. While the teacher gives her first day speech, I decide to write down what I am thinking about right now. I know nobody will see it so I can write as much as I desire to write. I have books on my desk so I can cover the note up when someone comes close to me. I think I will write a short note to Nick asking a question.

Emily

Nick

"Nick, what did I do? Your acting like I never existed. Yeah, I know I am not a slut like anyone wants but still. Your acting differently then you did earlier when we were getting out of each of our cars." Emily writes

I touch Nick’s shoulder and he turns around. I hand him the note. We are both sitting in the back. I am in the back row he’s in the second to back row. The teacher is trying to figure out what to do with her laptop. Its looking like she doesn’t have a clue what is wrong with the computer. She has to restart the computer and it should work afterwards. If she doesn’t know that me and nick will be having a conversation but without the talking. He gives me the note back and I look at it.

"I want to tell you something but I can’t. Something did happen. I am just wanting to know what happened to you. You left me after that conversation this morning. I finally found my way to the office and I didn’t see you for the first 2 periods. I didn’t know if you were in my classes but then I looked around and I didn’t see you anywhere in the halls." Nick writes

How does he think I will answer to that. I have no idea what to say. I think I won’t answer him at all for the rest of the period. I think he might get mad at me but who cares. Everyone doesn’t want me here. I most likely will continue writing that note I was trying to write earlier but then decided to give Nick a note. Her note is the following:

Dear Notebook,                                                                                              4/18/14

            I wish this day can get a little better. First, I say something to Nick I regret saying and now he wants to know what’s wrong. I am thinking yeah I am totally going to tell a stranger I just met I am depressed and suicidal. He might end up thinking I am crazy and won’t talk to me. He’s at least talking to me right now. He answered my note, that should be something good. I think if he was mad at me he wouldn’t have answered my note at all. He would have just given me back a blank note. I wish I had a friend. A friend that would let me use their shoulder to cry on. Someone who would listen to me vent and talk about my problems. I think there’s nobody for that job. Everyone wants someone who is perfect and doesn’t have any problems. I want to be that perfect girl. I have never had a friend before. I have had a friend before but they just used me to get my secrets and tell everyone. I think this is a decent note. Not to long, not to short. I will write again sometime. 

Love, Emily 

Right after I finish my note and rip it out the bell rings. I have the perfect timing ever. I would love to have that timing again. I walk out of the classroom and I make my way to the lunch room and see if anyone took my usual table. Most of the time, I have my own table because I am so hated. I look around and I see that nobody did or anywhere around my table. I get in line for lunch, and I second-guess that. I decided to sit down instead of getting lunch. I look around and see the usual faces I see every year. I see Jake but of course he’s sitting at his girlfriend’s table and is focused on talking to her when anyone could see he’s not really wanting to talk to her. He gets up and I decided this would be a good time to talk to him.

“Hey, you might not know who I am but I am Emily. I was just watching you talking to your girlfriend I would think…you look upset/annoyed at someone.” I said to Jake while trying to hide my nervous thinking this is the first time ever I have talked to him.

“Hi! I am Jake if you didn’t know. Yeah your correct that’s my wonderful girlfriend.” Jake said back to me but I can tell he’s not correct. She’s not being a good girlfriend.

“You want to talk about it.” I said to Jake

“Why don’t we get to know each other first and then we can talk about my wonderful girlfriend. We have the whole lunch period which just started why don’t we go in the basement so nobody would bother us. There’s nobody down there. Sometimes I go down there to get away from everyone.” Jake said back to me, while he shows me the way to the basement.

I am so happy. I can’t wait to talk to Jake and get to know him better than I do now. This day I thought was never going to come. I hope I don’t screw it up now. Watch , I will now because I am thinking I will. Every time I think something bad will happen it does. If I think something good will happen it’s always something bad. Let’s hope we don’t get caught. Not in the mood to get in trouble on the first day of school

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