Secret Love

Chapter Four

-Nick’s POV- *Wanted to give you a idea of what it happening with Nick. You only got what is happening with Emily, if you have any questions let me know. I will try my best to answer them.*

I can’t understand what is wrong with her. I know something is wrong but I don’t know why she wouldn’t tell me. I just want to help. She doesn’t want me to feel bad and only be friends because I feel bad. I don’t want her to think that. I truly want to be friends with her. I won’t just be friends because I feel bad. I am not that kind of a guy. I realize before I can continue thinking she hands me a note. (Same note from last chapter, just doing it in his pov)

Emily

Nick

Nick, what did I do? Your acting like I never existed. Yeah, I know I am not a slut like anyone wants but still. Your acting differently then you did earlier when we were getting out of each of our cars.

I really want to tell her but I can’t. I just can’t. I don’t want her to be a slut. I don’t like sluts. Yes, sluts like me but I am not a slut guy. I truly want to love a girl who isn’t scared to be herself, and speak her mind. I want to know what she meant earlier when she said that she wishes the drive could be longer to school. I don’t get what she meant. I want to know. I will know eventually. I don’t know when but when the time feels right I will ask her about what is actually going on. I reply back

I want to tell you something but I can’t. Something did happen. I am just wanting to know what happened to you. You left me after that conversation this morning. I finally found my way to the office and I didn’t see you for the first 2 periods. I didn’t know if you were in my classes but then I looked around and I didn’t see you anywhere in the halls.

I give her back the note. I look at the teacher and see she’s confused on how to work the computer. I thought all teachers know how to work a computer. She should have a phone, and a phone is similar to a computer. Just bigger. I realize Emily isn’t going to  answer me any time soon because she’s writing in her notebook and I don’t want to ask her what she’s writing because that’s her privacy and I don’t think I have the right to know what she’s thinking. Before, I know it the bell rings. . I decide to try to talk to Emily but as soon as I turn around to get my books she’s gone. I didn’t know she left that fast. That was very fast if you ask me. I think I should try to talk to her at lunch. I slowly walk to my locker not knowing where her locker is and I want to know. I want to know. I walk past 3rd hall and I see her blond hair. I walk down that hall knowing my locker isn’t close to hers but I want to see where her locker is so I can write nice notes to keep her motived to not letting her give up. Her locker number is 467. I write that down on my math notebook, so if I ever need to go to her locker I will remember. I have to go down stairs and put my books in my locker. I make it to my locker, I open it up and I put my locker in my locker and head to where I think lunch should be. I walk around looking inside of each hall. Every hall is different. I get into lunch and get in line and someone touches my shoulder and says “Hello! I am Victoria. You look new how can I help you with your schedule knowing your new.” Victoria says to me. She looks like a slut just by her outfit. I decide to ignore her. I don’t want to talk to any sluts. I don’t want Emily thinking I want to date any sluts. Sluts aren’t any people who know who they are, and can’t be loved. They just talk to themselves and they want everyone doing everything for themselves. Another person touches my shoulder. Before I turn around, I think I want to say “SHUT UP. I AM NEW. I DON’T NEED ANYONE’S HELP. IT’S GETTING ANNOYING. IF I NEED HELP I WILL ASK FOR IT. FOR NOW I DON’T NEED HELP. STOP EVERYONE ASKING ME. I AM NOT THAT CUTE EITHER. I AM NOT WILLING TO DATE YOU EITHER.” But when I turn around I see…”

Who do you think he sees? Comment any of your guesses.