Musical One Shots

The One Where Connor Watches Over Evan

Being dead was strange. In all reality it probably would've felt really good to let this world go. The world that had betrayed him and the world that had caused him to end his life. He thought it would be better for everyone. He thought it would feel good.

             But why did it hurt this bad?

             Sure the process of dying was painful but this was different. It was emotional either. It was as if the heart he used to have was aching. Why? Well, it was Evans fault, mostly.

              Evan had done so much to make sure Connor was remembered and not forgotten. Hell they sang a musical number and everything. But things started to happen. Friends found out, family found out and it all seemed to be crashing down.

                Connor was conflicted. Over the time he spent watching over Evan the more he wished he was alive and there because dammit Evan had made a dead person fall in love with him. That was the nicer part. The worse part was that Connor wanted to punch Evan in the face for doing something like that to him. To make him regret leaving and him ever doing anything really.

                In his own twisted way he liked that everything was crashing down. Connor thought that maybe Evan would come and join him in the afterlife. However, Connor had to make sure that wasn't going to happen. Evan had so much life to live he could tell and if Jared didn't do something about that fucking crush of his than Connor was literally going to come down there and throw printers at him till he did.

                   Thankfully, Heidi was there. He watched her tell Evan about his dad and how much she loved him. He saw Evan gradually get somewhat better. It made him happy.

            But he also felt sad. He felt sad that Evan would never join him. That he would never be able to tell him how he felt. It was stupid. He knew. For a dead person to love something. Dead people shouldn't love or feel anything but he did. Does everyone feel this way after death. Do they feel just as much as they did when they were alive?

             Because that fucking sucks and that is not what he signed up for.

             He signed up for the cold reality of eternal nothingness. Or maybe getting reborn into a different body with a life that wasn't as sad and horrible as his previous life was. This was way worse. Feelings. Those were the one thing he wanted to escape.

         But he silently watched Evan go through his life. He watched after years of mending their relationship, Jared and Evan became close. Years of fixing what he broke his sister and him becoming great friends along with Alana. Evan managed to fix everything. Connor will always envy that.

          Connor watched all the bumps in the road that Evan went through and that he didn't do it alone. That fucker. Messing with his emotions then making his life infinitely better.

           Connor simply watched in longing never wanting to stop because despite his bitterness  he loved this movie and he couldn't stop watching it. He will never stop loving Evan; even as he watched him take his final breath and watched his funeral.

           He never stopped watching over him and he never will.

I'm very sleep drunk right now but I can't go to sleep. So, I'm watching Friends (if you couldn't tell the reference of the chapter names are based off Friends) and Big Bang Theory clips.
Also my dog came up to me licked my face then proceeded to lay his head and paw on me for a good 5 minutes and now he's laying next to me.  I love him. Anyway, LET ME EXPLAIN THE SHIP'S IN THIS! Okay, so I ship Evan x Jared because I love the idea of them slowly mending their relationship and ending up together. I also ship Evan x Connor but I won't usually write as much of them because a lot of he fanfics bring Connor back and I feel that takes away the entire plot of the story. That's why I won't write too much of them unless it's going to be sad.

Sorry for the long note.

Until Next Time!!!