The Story of How I Died

Chapter 6: Texts and Cuts

I thought things couldn't be any worse. It did. On Monday after school I was walking home and Haley texted me again. I thought she couldn't say anything meaner but, this text... The one thing I never wanted to hear or happen. The one thing I wanted to prevent but I guess I couldn't. Tears were burning at the back of my eyes as I read the text over and over again to make sure what Haley just sent me was real.

Haley: You should really stop texting Dylan so much. H edoesn't like it. He doesn't want to be your friend either. You may not believe me but you can just ask him. It's true. Bitch. 

What the hell did I just read? Dylan couldn't even tell me himself. Or text me it. He told someone else to do it and someone who hurt me so much. I started crying. So I texted her back as I sucked in my breath. 

Isabelle: Lol thanks for telling me. :)

I know what your thinking. What aren't I being mean to her back. Like I said before, I'm trying to kill her with kindness. 

Haley: Alright cool. What did your bitch mom say about meeting up to do our science project at the cafe. 

Isabelle: I didn't ask her yet. I'll ask her when she gets home. And what was the address for that cafe again?

Haley: 24th ave 57th St. Right across from QFC. You'll find it you fucking idiot.

Isabelle: Lol thanks for telling me. :) 

Haley: Right it down. I ain't telling a bitch three times. Oh and if you think I told you the Dylan thing just to get a reaction out of you your wrong. He asked me to tell you.  

I cried even more.

Isabelle: I didn't think it was a reaction and okay. 

Haley: That's not what I said you fucking idiot son of a bitch. 

I cried more and thought to myself, can't this girl used swear words right? 

Isabelle: Lol thanks.

Haley: You don't get anything. But he did ask me to tell you. 

Isabelle: Okay, thanks. 

Haley: Alright you better go now before you ruin my evening. 

Isabelle: Lol sorry bye.

I cried the rest of way home. When I got home I slammed my bedroom door, locked it, and done the unthinkable. I took out my knife, I got a while ago, and started cutting myself. Blood was smeared a bit on the knife. I wiped the blood away on my pants. I toss the knife carelessly across my bed and lay against the wall, motionless. I thought of how stupid I am and how I'm a horrible person. I started crying. 

"Why am I so fucking stupid?" I muttered. Eventually I forced myself to bandage my arm. I called Maddie and told her what Haley just said to me.

"I'm so sorry Isabelle. You wouldn't be crying now if you read the texts. Don't read the texts Isabelle." Maddie pleaded.

I nodded my head and realized she can't see me. 

"Okay.." I muttered. 

"Give me her number." 

"What?"

"Give me her number." 

"Why? What are you going to do?" 

"Just give me her number."

"Don't do anything to make it worse." I pleaded.

"I promise I won't Isabelle." Maddie answered.

"Well... Okay.." I gave her Maddie's number and she said she's going to call me back in 5 minutes. She did. I answered the phone again.

"So what did she say?" I asked very curiously.

"Well, first I said to her what did Haley do to you and she kind of ignored the question and said you told her you didn't want to be friends with her on the day before her birthday party." Maddie said.

"Oh okay.." I said. The conversation went on for a bit and Maddie had to go. I hung up. 

I had a little hope that Haley was just lying about all those things she said. I know Haley doesn't lie but I'm not quite too sure. Maybe Dylan still is my friend. I wanted to ask him but I couldn't. I didn't have the nerve too. I was too weak and hurt. A few more scars appeared on my arm.

I kept all this drama from my mom. I know she would never understand. Whenever she sees the cuts on my arms I lied to her and said I fell down. My mom kept trying to encourage me to talk to Haley and be friends with her again. I just ducked the question and said "no I don't want too." She even tried to convince Maddie to talk to Haley. Maddie refused, as the good friend she always is. 

Ever since that text Haley sent me about Dylan not wanting to be my friend anymore, the stinging pain in my chest got worse. Is this even natural? I just kind of ignored the feeling. It was always still there though.

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So what do you guys think of Haley now? Is she lying or just messing with Isabelle's feelings? Is Dylan still Isabelle's close friend? Tell me what you think in the comments below. 

Alright guys I'll see you later.

Byeeeeeeeee