The Story of How I Died

Chapter 7: Hater Messages

The next day after Haley said those things I pretty much avoided Dylan. I avoided any communication with him and eye contact. It was pretty hard since he sat right across from me in Japanese.  

After that day Haley wanted to apologize to me. She's just all like, "I'm so sorry Isabelle. No matter how much I hate you, I don't like making people cry."  Wow. Very apologetic. She did it over text as well. I just can't believe her. She keeps texting me over and over again on how "sorry" she is. If she is that sorry than say it to my face. I can tell when I talk to my friends in Japanese Dylan is listening.

Aidan and I were partners for a project in Japanese and I told him Haley called me a bitch.

Right after I told him that he almost shouted across the room to Haley, "HALEY YOUR MEAN!!!" I grinned so big. It was so sweet of him to do that. 

One day in Japanese I was getting my folder and Haley was next to me I was like shit. I didn't look at her. I tried to grab my folder as quick as I could.

"I'm sorry for what I said." Haley muttered. She didn't even look me in the eye. 

"Okay?" I said as I grabbed my folder and walked away silently to my seat. I didn't know what to think or feel. Relieved or mad or whatever.

The next week in Japanese we were watching a Japanese movie called Totoro and I slipped a note to Dylan that said;

Do you hate me? Check yes or no.

He looked at it and scribbled something down and handed it back to me. I looked at it. It said;

I'll tell you later it's a long story. 

I nodded towards Dylan. After Japanese I went to Dylan and said to him,

"Do you hate me yes or no?" 

"Sorry." he said and walked away.

"What the fuck?" I said to myself. That didn't answer my question. I was pretty pissed yet curious till the end of the day. That's when Dylan texted. I read it twice, every word was a stab to the ribs. 

Dylan: I'll answer your question. The answer is yes I kind of do hate you and don't want to be friends with you anymore. It's because I found out it was all YOUR fault Haley said no to me asking her out. And then you started fucking crying about it when you were being mean to Haley. And then you were like I'm sooo sorry Haley said no yo you and you didn't even TELL me that you made her fucking say no!!!!! So we're not friends anymore and you over react with a bunch of stuff and blame it o people with you even knowing and so just stop talking to me. I just can't believe you went through all that work helping me become friends with Haley and ask her out and then you just tell her to say no because you liked me and you said that you would stop liking me and that I could forget about it then you FUCKING tell her to say no just because you liked me when I didn't like you at ALL. So it wouldn't have mattered when she said no because  I would have NEVER said yes if you asked me out so there was no fucking point in telling her to say no and then I heard you cry like a little pussy every FUCKING night because me and Haley liked each other. So anyway good bye forever and we will never be friends again!!!!! BITCH. 

I stared wide eyed at the text. I wanted to scream but no sound came out. I wanted to cry but no tears came out. Instead I went to my room, slammed the door and cut myself. I called Odessa and Michelle and Maddie and told them about it. They said he is just a big bastard and some other things... I just stayed in my room and read the whole time. I was so depressed. I felt like all the other got sucked out of me. I didn't cry that night. 

It was harder at school because Dylan sat right across from me. I just tried to ignore the fact that he existed. Maddie came over to my house and I told her about Dylan. 

"Give me your phone." Maddie said.

'Why? What are you going to do?" I panicked.

"I'm just going to say some thing to him." 

I gulped.

"Ummm... okay. Put star 67 then put his number cause I think it should put my number on unknown." I handed her my phone. 

"Alright." she said as she dialed his number. Dylan didn't answer so Maddie left a very.... harsh voice mail. I thought the star 67 worked but it didn't cause Dylan texted me.

"Your phone is vibrating." Maddie said. I grabbed the phone put of her hand.

"SHIT, SHIT, SHIT!!!" I yelled. I looked at the text.

Dylan: Get the fuck out of my fucking life you fucking bitch. I'm going to delete your contact.

It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I showed the text to Maddie.

"That little asshole." Maddie said.

We started laughing. It wasn't so bad. Although a lot of things start happening at home and I got very stressed out by it. Things were horrible at school and at home. I just hoped things will get better. Haley kept texting me about the science project but I ignored her. I sent her emails of summary's so she can print it out. Although she did say hurtful things. 

My old friend Alice and I got into a fight. She commented on my latest photo on Instagram that I like Aidan. I was so mad at her. We didn't speak to each other again. I was pretty much alone at school except in class. At lunch I felt alone. It was hard finding people to sit with at lunch since everyone ate lunch so quickly. I managed to find friends to sit with. 

Everything was okay. I was depressed more though. I was so scared to go to school and to go home. I was scared of my own phone school. At that time I was pretty modified. 

Maddie told me that this popular guy named Preston hated me because I was annoying, wretched, and thirsty. Like thirsty for guys and such. Maddie said I shouldn't worry since he had like 20 girlfriends that year.

I just hoped and prayed everything will go more smoothly. It didn't though.