(Hiatus) Where is my freak? [ L X Reader ]

Chapter 7

I kissed him. 

Near. 

My little brother. 

He kissed back. Does he like me- love me? How long has this gone on for? L has been dead, for over a month now, and i still think about him. Instead of thinking how i feel for near, i think, L is gone and trying and trying to tell myself it's okay to move on, Is it? He is gone, never coming back, never returning. He is dead and gone and death has come, tightened it's grip on him and never let go. He is no where to be seen. He cannot be heard. His calming presence is GONE! His intoxicating sent is miraculously disappeared, out of thin air. L is no longer here with us. Everything i loved about him is gone, taken with him. 

Some days i just try to imagine his face, and it...

Tears stream down my face.

...it's getting blurry. The way his nose sloped down came to a peak and curved . The way when he smiled, his face looked softer and brought out the colour in his cheeks as they got chubbier. No one really knew, but he had the most unnoticeable chubby cheeks in the world. You had to really stare and look and know what you were looking for. The way his eyes always gleamed when he saw something he liked: dessert, winning, Watari, any of his successors, and me. He always smiled when we hung out. 

Outside of that shared room in Whammy's there was none of that familiar smile anywhere to be seen. His eyes looked dull and his face was constantly serious and his smile was far gone. The later years of Whammy's, he always had new cases and ideas and theories. He usually kept them from me; i guess he wanted to know he was right. But when he did get something right, even if it was the tiniest detail he would always scour through Whammy's to tell me. He would have the proudest smile he owned spread across his cheeks. When i was in the room, he would just sit on the floor next to my bed where i would usually be reading or working, and just sit there until i noticed him. Once i would he would smile, grab my hands and bring me over to his computer or tell me every detail, memorized!

But, he is gone. 

I only have memories.

I don't know what he did after i left. From what Watari told me, before his depart, he told me that he never came out of his room. He just sat there, working for hours. Never looking away from the computer screen. Not speaking to anyone but Watari. Never sleeping. Even when he didn't have a case- Watari always told me he was researching something. Something he never told me.

But i never got that answer. And i never will. 

All pictures got destroyed from all Whammy prodigies so, once that distinct face is gone...it's gone. 

Tears swirled down my face.

Gone...

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A/n: Okay, i am sure you all want to slit my neck for the whole near thing. But i had to, i needed something to spice up the story. But never fear, Lawliet is never far from the picture. Anyways, that's all i needed to say. Bye.❤