(Hiatus) Where is my freak? [ L X Reader ]

Chapter 8

I have to move on...so goodbye L.
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"Near?" I questioned.
He nodded.
He brought me back into a embrace,
"I know, I know...But let me have this for a moment longer. You don't know how long I have wanted this."

What? The time  i have been dead, he has loved me? Did he ever stop?

The times and times i run away from my problems they end up reaching me when i think the race is over. Surrounding me, the time people have left, the times i have left. I want to leave and never be found again- but this time, i won't be able to come back. For that second chance. It's gone, like L.

NO! L IS GONE! L IS DEAD! L IS ERASED FROM MY MIND. LAWLIET, YOU ARE DEAD. YOU LEFT WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULDN'T! YOU ARE DEAD...to me.

He's gone...

I squeezed Near tight, tears poured out of my eyes, loud sobbing against his chest.

He brought his hands up to my face, "[Y/n], what is that matter?"

"I..." I paused thinking, l is gone, Near loves me and i want to protect him. I have a deep care for him, ever since he came to Whammy's. 

"I love you." I admitted looking at him directly in the eyes.

He smiled. (Not the creepy near smile, god forbid that.)

"[Y/n], i know this is soon, but..."

The phone rang in his pocket, he sighed and picked up.

He mummed along the phone line.

"Be there soon." Looking back at me, "[Y/n], work with me." 

"What?" 

"Work with the SPK. Defeat Kira. Avenge L. " Once he spoke the last part, he looked down in silence. 

I grabbed his hand, "He is dead..." I looked down at the ground, looking back at him. "He is gone, and nothing we could ever do would make up to the fact that he is dead, and so is Watari. But what we can do is elevate this crisis and end Kira once and for all."

He looked at me with such a shine for his usually dull eyes.

"Perfectly said, as usual."

We headed off to the HQ. 

Screw you, Light. Turn my team against me is one thing, but expecting me to not fight back is another. I came back from the dead once, don't expect me to make the same mistake again.

[Time skip]

We walked through the doors, along the corridor all the way to the end, where laid an elevator.

travelling up, i asked "Near, Um..." i fiddled with my sleeve, "My old team, they...you know what they did. How can i not know the SPK won't do the same?"

His eyes softened, "Because, they know you aren't Kira. They know we have a past, and that i trust you with my life. As long as i am still here- they won't."

'As long as i am still here-' 

How long will that be, until the next death, life is uncertain, but death is also uncertain.

When has death been certain though...