Our Mistake (Laurmani)(COMPLETED)

Deja Vu

Lauren's  P.O.V

I've been home for about a week now. Having a broken arm isn't that bad, except for showering or writing since I'm left handed. Since I've came home I haven't had to make one meal, which is awesome. It's either Ally, Normani, Ashley or sometimes Dinah who comes over and cooks for me. Normani is still, without a doubt, my favorite cook. She comes over more than the others though, but it makes sense, since she has my child.

We all just enjoy each others company and Normani's affection hasn't stopped. I wonder if she feels bad or guilty about the accident? I mean the only time she was affectionate, was when we were dating. It could be that she's shaken up by the whole idea of someone close to her dying. I don't know. I know she hasn't kissed me again so I'm thinking this can't be a feelings thing. Something is making her act super nice and I want to know what it is.

Today, no one is supposed to be coming to check on me. It was really my choice though. I told them to just let me be alone for a day. My ribs feel better and my face is healing. The only thing left is this damn arm. I decide to order a movie and stay in bed. I go back to work tomorrow so that won't be fun. Dad took care of some of the stuff from Florida, but I need to get back.

I kinda wish I could stay like this forever. Having people wait on me and all the affection from Normani. I'm kinda just waiting for Normani to go back to her normal self, though I don't want her to, I know it's coming. All the hugs and cuddling is going to stop, but I just realized that's something she always did. Whenever I was sick she would just hold me, even though I could get her sick too. Maybe that's a maternal instinct? That's all I wanted to do with Maya when she got sick.

This makes me miss Normani more though. It makes me want her more and that just fucks with my emotions because I'm not getting her back. Then when I think about Ashley, I see a future. I can see me maybe moving on with her but something is telling me to just leave her alone. She can do better than me. She's a really nice girl. She's sweet, funny, hot, a good mom from what I can tell and she's smart as hell. I'm not saying she's too good for me but I just have to many things going on to ever be the person she needs or deserves. Until I can really let Mani go, I can't seriously date anyone. I have told Ashley that her so she doesn't get hurt. Hopefully she won't get hurt.

I'm kinda missing having some company now because, daytime TV sucks. It's around lunch time so I guess I'll go make something to eat. I go in the kitchen and look in the refrigerator. I need to go grocery shopping. I pull out some things to make a sandwich and then set them on the counter. A BLT sounds good. I start to cook my bacon and cut my lettuce and tomato. When my bacon is done I put it on my sandwich and sit down and eat. I totally make an awesome sandwich. When I finish eating I hear a knock at my door. Damn. I get up and open the door.

"Hey." Ashley says.

"Hey. What are you doing here?" I ask.

"It's my lunch break and you don't live that far so I figured I'd come check on you." She says and I move aside so she can come in.

"You do know I am able bodied?" I say as I close the door and she sits her purse on the table.

"Not until that cast comes off."

"I'm still fine."

"Yes you are." She says with a smirk and I shake my head. I go to the refrigerator and she says.

"Not the first time I've been in a car accident." I say.

"How many have you been in?"

"One other. It wasn't even an accident. Mani tried to kill me." I say and she gasps. I laugh a little and say.